Iranian twin dies after separation surgery

As i recalled, during a interview the twins said that the first thing they wanna do after the operation is to see each other face to face. Somehow, though i'm not related to them, i feel kind of heart-aching. 29years of being together as 1, and now that they are somewhat undergoing the separation, one dies. Is it fate? Just praying that one will survive, though i heard the chances are very slim.

Please pray for Laleh Bijani ....

[18.59] two dead. :(

Winamp playing : MLTR- nothing to lose

Dance practice

Went back to school for dance practice today. Had to take temperature again, but with the help of the thermal scanners it was much faster and easier. Canteens are fenced up, everywhere you go you have to scan your cards. Just imagine you forgot your card one day.

Dance today was bad bad bad! Only 3 of us turn up, cos the rest have got classes or whatever excuses they came up with. So for the whole afternoon, we were just trying to figure out the music and part of the steps.

Bad day... :(

Winamp playing : Usher - If i want to

End of work, back to school ?

My last day of work ended yesterday. Kinda sad though... :( school's gonna start. Cca orientations, and so on! oh ya, my timetable really turns me off! I've classes that ends at 9+pm! arghh i hate it!!! How am i going to find another part time job.. sighh

I'm at jean's house today, cos she's sick. Poor girl.. feeling so weak. Jacelyn is coming over later with Tim! I'm kinda feeling very bored here. What i did was to take her temperature once every two hours, cook some porridge for her. Apparently, i dun have to worry if it tastes good in any way. A sick person usually lost her sense of taste. haha... i spend the whole night awake till now with just 2 hours of slp. I just can't get myself to slp and my eyes practically opened wide! And all i stick to was my stack of notes... and i was so bored that i ended up helping her sweep and mop the floor. she stays alone for that matter..

I can't wait to get hold of this week 8days magazine! Sharon Au's on the coverpage! Grab a copy of it soon! :)

Winamp playing : Five for fighting - Superman

My weekends

Saturday
had a mini gathering with my friends. In the noon, went to dav's house to look for his sis, tammy, cos long time didn't see her already.
still as cute as ever.. :) was talking and playing with her till i almost late to meet the rest of my friends to go marina. Went marina to fly kite!
jacelyn was the one who organise this outing, response was not bad, abt 16 of us turn up. tat shows how much "mei li" she has! at least.. haha.
We went there with 3 kites and return with 1 kite. so pathetic. i used to fly kite when i was young with my siblings, it seems much more easier than
now.. anyways after tat we went for steamboat. yumm! afterwhich, james, robin and i went over to daven's place to stay over. We played ps the
whole night, and to realise dav's got an exam to study for!

Sunday
Left dav's house at 8+am, went to andrew's house for a meeting, went swimming with vincent in the afternoon. Afterwhich, suddenly received a call from
my elaine's mum. Elaine's my ex-gf. ya, the mum invited me to go over for dinner. I actually met the mum at the supermarket one or two weeks ago, that's how she got my contact no again. Elaine's now in Australia, don't think she had any idea i went over to her place after 2-3 years? I didn't wanted to go
but yet part of me didn't wanna reject again. Hence, i went. Her dad had gone for a business trip, so it was just a simple dinner with her mum and sister. Less pressure. The place didn't changed much, except for the new fish tank, least that's what i remember of that place.. As usual, her mum said i've changed. 2-3 years isn't that long but pple change due to the environment they're in. Dinner was good and i stupidly promised for more dinners in the future. After dinner, the mum drove us to haagen-daz for ice-cream at the esplanade. It was a simple evening that we spend together, not much was spoken, but we all knew what's on each other's mind.

Winamp playing : Lonestar - i'm already there

The tension of opposites

Extracted from Tuesdays with morrie - Part 1

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.

"A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle."

Sounds like a wrestling match, i say.

"A wrestling match." He laughs. " Yes, you could describe life that way."

So which side wins, i ask?

"Which side wins?"

He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

"Love wins. Love always wins."


Winamp playing : Evan & Jaron - The distance

Happpy birthday mel !

mel's birthday is like a reminder to me that my birthday will be exactly a month away.. 24/7 just reminds me of alot of things.... i'm so tired now.. and ya i'm blogging in the office.. hoho!

Anyone got their ndp tickets? so sad i don't think i got mine... :( by the way i was reading an article in the straits times, it's a survey conducted by a university in 23 cities. and in that survey singapore was placed the last 21 cities, one spot above new york. Cities that are moving in a slower pace of life were the friendliest places. I do agree with Pro.Tommy Koh, that Singaporeans tend to mind their own business, we aren't warmth and most of the time pple just can't be bothered. Who cares if you have an injured leg or your pen drops? Perhaps Singaporeans are more of the conservative types, they dare not approach strangers, i guess one thing they fear is ------- rejection. Think about it, when appeals for donations to NKF, courage funds can be so successful, why are small acts of kindness being neglected?

Winamp playing

Saturday morning..

I just heard from my uncle my brother will be going to Pennsylvania to pursue his degree end of july. His dream had finally came true.. i think he's studying some life science stuffs, which is totally not something i will study.. I guess that's the difference between us.

I'm going to pop down to sentosa later for the funtasea thing with my cousins. It's like a family thing, so most probably i won't join them for the games. I'll probably join some groups playing volleyball, it'll be better if i see some familiar faces. I use to make friends while joining with other groups at volleyball. Used to have 'friendly match' against different groups. Can't wait for sentosa to revamp, can't really do much there accept for the beach.. oh yea, there's a courage fund concert today at sentosa too.. oh it'll be damn crowded!

Brought my cousins to watch finding nemo yesterday evening, the show's not too bad.. the graphics is excellent! nemo is very cute and somehow i felt dory resembles my friend, daven.. hahah.. short term memory.. went swensens for ice-cream after that, the last time i went there was like a year back or more.. the menu is still the same, and there's nothing new.. so boring..

Feeling quite bored at this moment, suppose to meet John to go gym but it'll be kinda rush... yawnz.. gonnna go make some pancakes..hah... i hear my stomach...

Winamp playing : Darius - Colourblind

some gossips of star search

been a week since i blog? hmm, was actually enjoying myself so much at the camp and after it as well. i'm currently still working, planning to quit soon.. and helping my friend over his project. i'm doing the script and so on... geez...i realise how much i enjoy the photography and filming, yes! script-writing! I've really learn alot.. i've saw the advertisement on the upcoming starseach 2003? I hope at least one singaporean can make it as the champ! I quite like f1, she can sing pretty well, she doesn't seem like she can act well though.. There's this fann wong look-alike from china? not really that alike actually but the first glance at a certain view.. oh not forgetting this malaysian contestant call Dai Qianyun, she's like so cute! i mean she bring herself out very well, confident... haha...hopefully i get the chance to watch the finals next week! It's really a competition, everyone is really outstanding in their own way!

oh there's chemistry today! cheers!

Winamp playing : Rui En - Shi shui

special events at sentosa

Aunt called yesterday, told me to go along with them for this funtasea event at Sentosa. It's organised by kids central, just went to find out more about it. feel so much like a child once again, sandcastle-building competitions ...treasure hunts... And as i was surfing on it, i read about the upcoming " Courage Fund Charity Concert" , just when i thought the collection of funds are over.. hmm and 5566 as well as other artistes will be performing as well.. 5566? not again? .....

[1408] stupid bimbo is back.. better get of this first before she starts complaining again.

[1639] going off from work. tired. gonna go home slp. my mum just came to office for meeting. fated.


Winamp playing

At work

Got my exam results, no need for (S) paper! *phew*. Been a little busy after that night. Went for my cycling camp the very next day, was really fun! I love cycling at night! I made a new friend - Adrain. totally adventurous guy, who climbs mountains, backpacking and scuba dives and so on! Now i know who to look for when i ever go for my first backpacking or even to say climb mountains?

I've been helping my dad at work these few days and i never really had a break till now. ( he's out with my uncle ), that leaves me some time to blog and so on.. I've never exactly know what my dad is doing, even right now when i'm helping him. My mind is blank. The people here working seems rather motivated and each of them makes efforts to perform their task well. Despite the fast pace at work, deadlines and stress they faced, they are always putting on a smile. And whenever i see that, i feel a warm glow of friendliness and motivated as well.

I manage to see my mum at work yesterday after so long. months. She's still as pretty as ever, more fashionable, capable .. i've so much to say to her but yet when i see her i can't seem to get the words out. Just when i was to say something, my dad called for her.

I slump deeper in my chair, that's all i need now. I'm going for my camp next week, therefore i must finished up my work today by monday.

Winamp playing : The foundations - Build me up a buttercup

Through a child's eyes

The world is an adventure, there's so many things to see, the search for buried treasure, climbing high up in a tree. Finding shells along the seashore, playing marbles in the sand, skipping stones across a pond, throwing as far as you can. Playing a game of hide and seek, way back out in the woods, pretending your a robber, and stealing all the goods. Wading barefoot in a creek, and trying to catch a frog, or going to your favorite park, and playing frisbee with your dog. And as I sit and wonder, it comes as no supprise, how little things can seem so big, seen through a childs eyes.

Winamp playing : lu qiao ying - hao xin fen shou

New song added

i added a song " when you say nothing at all ". Exams results gonna be out in like 6-7 hours? arghhh.. i'm so scared! wish me luck! :) The image that i just added is finally up, yes, and i admit it sux pretty much... leave it for the moment... oh yea, if the song hurts your ears, you can go to the other some box, scroll down and click on "stop". gonna go jogging now!

Winamp playing : When you saying nothing at all

Purplish

So tired of big blogs, and the stupid banner. Nothing nice, just something simpler.. This weekend is bad, i'm so sick from head to toe.. hmm toe? well...maybe it will soon be.. anyway the site might not work well.. can't seem to link the BIG pic properly.. but well can't really be bothered by it now.. heh..

First day of a brand new month... a month of excitement, sheer hard work and more... yes! exams results gonna be out.. sighh... prays prays!

Nothing much to blog when i'm sick..

Winamp playing : Joey Lawerence - Stay forever

Have you got the blues ?

I didn't talk to anyone accept the customers today. I'm very tired, i'm gonna take my medicine and sleep. That's an escape.

Today's timothy's bday! Happy birthday dude! :) i'll rem that mini countdown... :D

Winamp playing : Nora Jones - cold cold heart

Bookcravers

Check this out! Book Craves Good deal?

but do they just have 1 book for each title? weird..


Winamp playing : Stevie b - when i dream about you

A story from Yin Yue Ri Ji - 93.3fm

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for
those who fear,
too long for those who grieve, too short for those
who rejoice,
but for those who love, time is eternity."

My husband is a scientist by profession. I love him
for his rock-steady
nature, and I love the warm feeling while I lean
against his broad shoulder.

Three years in the courtship, and now, two years
into marriage, I have to
admit, I am getting tired. Reasons for loving him
have now transformed into
the cause of my restlessness. I am a sentimental
woman; thus sensitive and
fragile when it comes to relationships and feelings.
I yearn for romantic
moments, like a little boy yearning for candy. My
husband is a complete
contrast; his lack of sensitivity, and above all,
his inability to bring
romantic moments into our marriage, has disheartened
me.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision,
that i want a divorce
"Why?" he asked, shocked.
"I am tired, and there aren't reasons for everything
in the world" I
answered.

He kept silent, deep thoughts the whole night with
cigarette lit throughout.

My disappointment intensified. A man who can't even express his anguish, his
hopes that I'd stay on... what else can I hope from
him?Finally he asked, "
What can I do to change your mind?"

Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a
person's personality, and I
guess, I have started losing faith in him. Looking
deep into his eyes, I
slowly answered : "Here is a question, if you can
find the answer in my
heart, I will change my mind. If I see a flower on a
mountain cliff and I
really love it, and in picking the flower, it's sure
to cause death, will
you do it for me?"

He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow..."
My heart just sank on
hearing his response.

The next morning, he was not around when I awoke. I
saw a piece of paper
with his characteristic messy scribble. It goes:

"Dear,
I would not pick that flower for you, but please
allow me to further tell
you my reasons," The first sentence has already
broken my heart.

I continue reading.

"You often type using the computer and always crash
the PC system, then end
up crying before the monitor; so I have to save my
fingers so that I can
help to restore the programmes.

You always misplace the house key; thus I have to
save my legs to rush home
to open the door for you.

You love travelling but always lose your way in a
new city; I have to save
my eyes to lead you the way.

You always has the cramp whenever your "good friend"
approaches every month;
I have to save my palm so that I can soothe the
cramps at your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, but I worry that you will
be infected by infantile
autism. Because of that, I have to save my mouth to
tell you jokes and
stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer screen, and that is
no good for your eyes.
I have to save my eyes so that when we grow older, I
can help to clip your
nails,and help to remove those annoying white hairs.

I will hold your hand, stroll down the beach, enjoy
the sunshine and the
beautiful sand, tell you the colour of flowers which
look just like the glow
on your young face...

Thus, my dear, before I am sure that there is
someone who loves you more
than I do, I would not pick the flower, or die.. "

My tears dropped on the letter and the words
blurred. I continued to read...

"And now, dear... you have finished reading my
answer. If you are satisfied
with these answers, please open the house door, for
I am standing out here
with your favorite bread and fresh milk...

I rushed to pull open the door. His anxious face
appeared, with his hand
holding tight to the glass of milk and the piece of
bread...

Oh I am sure no one will ever love me as much, and I
have decided to leave
the flower alone...

That's life, or some say, love. When one is surrounded by love and the
excitement fade aways, and one tends to overlook the
true love that lies
between the peace and dullness.

Love appears in any form; very miniscule and even
corny form. It has never
been a model, it could be the most unglamourous,
undramatic. Flowers,
romantic moments... These are all on the surface of
the relationship.

Beneath all it, the pillar of true love stands...

Winamp playing : Matchbox twenty - unwell

Sleepy Sunday

I feel so sleepy today, no idea why.. so tired that i can hardly open my eyes. But when i lay down on my bed i cant sleep..argh! so here i'm blogging. I'm on leave today! i hardly exercise this weekend! so gonna go play squash with John later!

Oh American Idol last week, Ruben Studdard won! But i thought clay has a clear, soothing voice! His songs are nice , but most of my frens said he sounds like he's singing in a church or something.. well maybe! But i think clay is much better than ruben..

Been listening to "Yin Yue Ri Ji" on 933fm, it's ard 8pm on weekdays. Some of the stories are really touching, the Dj, ling zhi really did a good job in reading it, and together with the background music, it can really make you feel ... in fact few days ago i recieve and email on one of the stories which was quite touching, maybe i'll post it tomorrow or something.. :)

Went to KFC with Jeremy yesterday! I hardly visit fast food restuarants but it was total crowded in town yesterday that i've no choice. We went to the Taka outlet! The counter crews were slow, very slow! and the queue was long, and waiting to eat something i didn't really want to was killing me! But jeremy was the opp of me! He's like the chicken king of kfc! It's like a daily or weekly meal to him! The thought of it turns me off! While queuing we were talking about the advert of the KFC "buddy meal" and we decide to order our food by immitating it, the very last two pple in the ad! So when it was our turn, we said " one buddy meal! "at the same time, and the person was like, one or two? .....

Squash!! Where's my racket?? damn it!

Winamp playing : Cake - Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps

Something short

I'm planning for my camp now, and i've got the t-shirts ready.
My friends was asking me to go for the OGL camp or meeting for the new batch of freshies. kinda lazy to go.. it's never interesting anyway.. if you consider having orientation in school..
Will be going off my camp really soon! Meanwhile i was thinking to do something to my blog. It's pretty hot and i cant take it anymore! Going to gym now!

Winamp playing : Lighthouse Family - high

Burning day

Wow man! the weather's like freaking hot!!!! arghhh! Just came back from swimming training! skin's like burning now.. Trying to get my fingers fast on the keyboard, i need to finish typing my report in half an hour's time then i've to go for a meeting!

Had a great weekend! On saturday, went meet my cousins, went marina for steamboat.. meet frens for pool at night and supper at newton. Then went to Ronald's house to stay over and then the next morning went for tennis, then go meet up with another group of frens at holland v - brego.. yumm! The cafe and sandwich bar! :) Oh man! The moment i saw samantha i was like oh strawberry head! hahah.. her hair is like pInk? oh yea she just came back from states for hols. Basically everyone came with a small surprise..:D was really funn and oh i'm getting ready for the camp! :D

Got to go finish up my last bit of report. Facing so many problems now.. arghh...

Winamp playing : Coldplay - The scientist

Reflection

Few more hours to go before my paper! kinda drained out already, and i'm neither physically, mentally, emotionally ready for the paper. Yes, been revising and so on, but i guess that doesnt help much. I've been so tired recently, running errands for my dad, which adds to my busy schedule and yup the sleepless nights? I'm just getting used to it.

Everyone around me are facing some problems somehow, emotionally. I dunno, i might just be influence by it or perhaps it just happens to me. Usually in my darkest hours, i have the habit of thinking about things.Maybe that's why i'm more to keeping things to myself, at least most of the time. I realise it's not easy finding someone whom you can pour out to, not because you cant trust the person or anything like that, it's just because everyone is occupied with their stuffs, who will wanna give a damn to your problems? Afterall, most of the time they won't be able to solve your problem. But i think listening is more important than just talking. Due to my work schedules, i seldom find the time to actually meet up with my friends and so on. In fact, recently i just receive a call from a fren of mine, pretty close. She called, told me that i've kinda neglected my friends and so on, which i also agree. I've not been able to meet up my friends, besides those from work, project..etc. Everyday, i just have to reject different people etc, feel kinda bad, but what choice do i have? There's like things that we can't always keep the same like before, that's what i told her. Everyone is living their lifes differently, we've our own things to work for. Nevertheless i still miss the much more relaxed time with my friends, who won't? when things were just fun, laughter and more .. everything gonna change isnt it? well, i guess now i just need to do more socialising... and i really want to.

Later in the afternoon would be all for my cousins, probably at night might meet up with some friends, i guess i need a break. Not from work, but something else too...
Alright, need to go off to meet my dad to pass him stuffs. Happy weekends everyone!

Winamp playing : Travis - Flower in the window