Counting down

3 more days to end of exams! can't wait cos i'm really drain out...actually i guess it's because i can't wait to resume my trainings especially when competition draws closer. And due to the exams, haven't been exercising that much and that's really bad. I've like an adventure camp coming, cycling camp, wat else? like me see.. class outing, not sure when it is, gonna be meeting my cousins on Saturday. It's like a every 6 mths or so gathering, that will be like about 20 of us or more if you would to include the younger ones as well. I haven't thought of where to go, my cousins suggested a buffet so we can eat and talk at the same time.. and actually my uncle was planning to book a hotel for us to stay over the weekends, but that was postponed till the holidays. Most of them are still schooling and one still having exams and so on..
But anyway, the hotel's are busy coming up with promotion plans and offers to attract locals, and i heard it's really cheap and that fullerton hotel is having a great discount for its rooms, and some hotels are like having 100 bucks/per night, provided with breakfast and so on..

I dunno, but staying in Singapore for a holiday, and to spend that amount to live in a hotel is kinda a no no for me.. Perhaps for families with kids, i'm sure the kids would love it. This holiday i might need to travel abit to KL or further to Australia. Oh ya talking about Australia, the tix there is really cheap, ard 300+? I guess i'll be getting a free ticket if i will to go there. It's an invitation from my friends there, but hmm probably end of the year or something, this term break is too short to squeeze everything!

I'm at my cousin's place now. Gonna head down to work later, yapp gotta study for my paperS tomorrow..

Winamp playing : Bon Jovi - All about loving you

Be thankful

Was listening to the radio earlier on, some of the listeners called in and voice their views over the "fight-and-grab-for-vegetables". Looks like things are getting more complicated and so on, first we have the war, then the Sars, the economy downturn, and now what? Vegetables war? well so many unhappy things have happened huh.. Anyway a listener emailed to perfect 10 and she mailed some quite interesting and inspiring stuffs, which i want to share with whoever reads this.. let's see, based on my memory... here it goes..

I'm thankful for the messy room, dirty floor and windows, because this shows that i've a house to live in,
I'm thankful for the nights when my husband is snoring, because this shows that he's by my side,
I'm thankful for the amount of taxes i have to pay, because this shows that i've a job,
i'm thankful for the tight-fitting clothes that i have, because this shows that i've enough food to eat,
i'm thankful for the noise i hear on jive drive, because this shows that i've the power of hearing.

There's still a few more, i cant really remember... but it just makes me think that sometimes the bad things that fall upon us is not always as bad afterall...

Winamp playing : Vertical Horizon - best i ever had

Somebody

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

Sounds so much like a beautiful dream.. the song is simply soothing...
By the way, a number of pple had asked me to upload my pic on my site.. perhaps when i've got back all my pictures into this computer and when i'm more free..:p

A song is not just a song

Winamp playing : Depeche mode - Somebody

Good Friday ?

Running at mac ritchie at 6am+

Made pasta for lunch with my cousins

Finished reading my book

Went tuition in afternoon

Work in the late afternoon

Feeling much better compared to the last few days, was having a rather bad headache and i really feel like burying my head somewhere.. haha.. anyway I don't have to work this weekend! I'm so happpppppy!!! :D Tomorrow i'm going to do research with Daven at Orchard Lib, still remember the very last time we went there, we both got a crush on this girl. Actually we seen her for a few times, he cheekily went up to her and utter some what i call "rubbish-lame" conversation. After which we learned that her name is Liting. Being the rather hmm shy one, it's just so not me to do that. But sometimes i just hoped i can do away with that. Maybe it's just the past experience that i had... anyway a crush is always a crush..

Tuition today :
me : so how is it back to school now?
boy : not good lah, the teachers are talking about sars everyday..alot of things cancelled, school seem so meaningless now
boy : everyday before class, everyone must wash hands in the toilet.. and instead of washing hands, i feel like i just taken a bath out of the toilet
everyone is splashing waters at each other... school is TOTAL SIANESS..
me : hmm so you must be rather free now isn't it? so means more homework huh? haa
boy : *gives me that pitiful look * play bball with me lehhh
boy : my parents don't allow me go out with my friends, maybe with you cannn... plss
me : we talk about that later, finished up your work first lah..
[10 minutes later, his mum walked in with some snacks and drinks ]
boy : Mumm... can go down play bball with teacher? (pulling me close to him)
me : *thinking in my heart* teacher? i really dislike being called a teacher, sound so old* i just grin at the mother
Mum : you better finished up your first and revising for your tests first.. grins at me
boy : no problem! *giving me the "you-ve-got-no-choice" look..
boy : i really cant understand what the broom stick is teaching in school! what "-" what "+" = "-"...
me : broom stick? that's how mean of you.. hah
boy : really... she's got patricia mok look alike body! wait a min, i mean the one in the comedy night when she was hunching and acting as one of the workers in tour
agency..
me : hahah i seriously have no idea about it... ok now.. let's start lesson proper..

So in the end , i ended up playing bball for an hour +. Luckily i wasn't late for work, actually he's quite short but rather adorable hah.. but his sister is like quite fierce and cries when she's frustrated. In fact last week, while working on a maths problem, the sister got so frustrated and cried. I was simply loss for words...my god, i was thinking! damn it..hhah wat should i do now.. i gave her a tissue, that was like a very very very WRONG MOVE.. she pushed my hand away very hard and shouted the F word, walked out the room, went into her room and slammed the door. Can you imagine how shocked i was? The mum talked to me, she said i've to be extra patient with her? I'm already am, and i don't see what's more i can do.. It's really difficult to teach if she's not responding throughout the whole lesson, i've tried using different methods, from telling a story to playing games, etc.. luckily today's one was ok, she managed to complete everything without a tear.. *lucky me*

My parents, uncle and aunties will be coming back tomorrow morning. My cousins will all be going home tomorrow except for one. Cos her parents isn't coming back yet and her house under renovation. She's like 4 years old only, no need to wake up so early for school...good for me.. Exams, deadlines, assignments are just words bubbling up in my mind. Everyone's like telling me "wow you damn free loh still can go for lunch with your frens, dont need to do ur lab huh" whatever i do , there's always someone who will keep reminding me about my unfinished-piling high up like some tower-like pyramid thing.. It's not as though i'm that free just because i'm having lunch? Everyday is always a long day for me, i leave home at 7 the lastest come home at around 11+ or even later. I'll turn in like 4am or sometimes even not, depends if i've finished my work, etc.. I feel so much so like a crazy workaholic with no life sometimes, but its something that i've to do. Sometimes when i feel so stress up, and people around me just aint understanding enough, sometimes they think so much about themselves that they don't even give a damn about you. But whatever it is, i've always chose to keep my feelings to myself than to make things worse.

Gonna give mel a call.. hope she's free..just miss talking to her... been so long since i saw or chatted with her

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away

Winamp playing : Nora Jones - Don't know why

One ring to a start of a good week

I was home the whole day yesterday, too tired to go out and i pretty much like the feeling of lying on my bed, reading my books, playing my guitar and cooking for my cousins. Was playing neopets with my cousins..some of the games are really nice! You get to invest your points on stocks, set up a shop etc.. something interesting.. :)
I got this lord of the rings ring from Jeanette yesterday. yeah i'm one of big fans of lord of the rings.. i've the posters, the cards, the calendars, the bookmarks..:D was quite surprise when she gave it to me, cos actually she pop by my house to get some books from me and she said she got it some time back but wasn't free to pass it to me. i was like.. omg! isnt that lord of the rings? haha...

During the evening, i went to feed my fishes, water my plants. I've not been feeding them instead leaving the job to the maid that is temporary around now. I was thinking to go get more fishes, it seems that the fishes are really lonely swimming there..hah.. i need some more to spice up their lifes! hahaa.. Went on to watch the NKF show, make two calls and the short clip on the patients really touched my hearts. The part when Sharon Au actually went into a small, old air condition and jack neo lying on the glass and so on, really make me feel ouch.. of cos not forgetting those who sang their hearts out... The total number of calls really stunned me, as i remembered this is the only year that it really reach that much in just one event. I'll be looking forward to the local stars performing their stunts and so on... all they way!!~~

Next week's my common test week again and this week i'll probably be preparing for it as well as my second presentation for my communication project too. That means i've to meet up with my team mate. I'm feel quite a distant still with her, because she's too quiet? hmm.. and i, myself is already one quiet one.. so most of the time we just lapse into silence when we meet. Thus, we now communicate more through the net... perhaps things will get better this time round? Oh i was in the train on friday, when i saw the girl with her friends. Yah.. i still dunno her name. but anyway both of us were travelling from yck to city hall, we did chat up a little though i feel quite uneasy with her friends looking at me from head to toe. Somehow i feel like an alien or some weirdos.. maybe in a way, because i was carrying alot of things that day, i've a big sling bag for my training stuffs, a big bag that i carry on my shoulder that contains my tennis rackets, and my guitar. I was wearing a white shirt with my cream colour berms and yahh i was wearing my shades. I guess all add up to looking really weird.. haha...well the train was pretty fast so i wasn't having a hard time out there...

One Ring to Rule Them All.
One Ring to Find Them,
One Ring to Bring Them All
And in the Darkness Bind Them!

mine's the silver version of this...:D

Winamp playing : Ronan keating - when you say nothing at all

Heart for thoughts

Been really busy this week, so didn't have much time to blog. I had one of my communication presentation yesterday, it's not a school thing. Something outside that i am involved in. Glad it's over now, seriously i'm quite happy with my performance yesterday.. hah..:D Next week, will be a more relaxed week. It's gonna be school reopen already huh? My parents should be coming home next weekend or something, means my cousins would be going back home too...:( Read on articles about Singaporean's attitude towards the nurses and so on, felt really disgusted and disgraced at the same time. They are the people who risk their lifes to save others, and yet being discriminated by the society? We are not white collar workers who can standby to save lifes, but the minimum we can do is to give their moral support, encouragement. Like what timothy said, grab an appreciation card from all MRT station today and send to TTSH via post to thank the medical staff. I've a few here with me.. :D Also i've recieved a couple of sms that goes like, "I've sars because i'm suave, attractive...blahh.." can't really remember. But i really hope pple take this seriously instead of joking about it.

Yesterday, i went for my swimming training. Something i've been looking forward to since the SARs outbreak..hah.. It was quite tiring though, Jimmy bought his digital camera. We actually took alot of pics in the water. It suddenly reminds me of my diving days. Back then we did take pictures of the marine life, it's so amazing underwater... i just miss the fishes! After that we went to holland village for a drink, saw my ex-school mates! And i heard one of our friends joined the star search and he got in to the so called selection or something like that... i saw an advertisement of it just now but its like i seen those girls who all on tvs are like not outstanding enough to be qualified for a celebrity.

Anyway today, will be the first half of the NKF show, i picture this gonna be a real big event as it had moved on to it's 10th year. Every year i would make a call at least, to give my support, this time round is no exception. pls donate.. When people usually thinks that the actors and actress are risking their lifes, but i thought if they do not do stunts and so on, it wouldn't show that much of them trying to help with the fund-raising. It will be so boring if the actors just sings and dance.. isnt it?

It's been raining this couple of days huh? where's the sunn????

Winamp playing : Dakota Moon - A promise i make

No more lectures

My school has officially suspended all lectures and all lectures will be conducted during tutorials. I think i like that.. that would means earlier dismissal. I'm currently now working on my speech project. Will be kinda busy this week to blog.

My second tuition lesson will start tomorrow.. anyway the first one was still not bad..hah.. i guessed i didn't failed. well, i'm teaching one in primary 6 and one in sec1. Hence, i think the syllabus is about the same.. I'm teaching maths and science for both. The mom requested me to help the elder one in literature.. hmm.. i think i need to do some proper lesson plan and what to cover by every lesson.

Well i went wakeboarding on Sunday! wow! was really funnnnn!!!!!! I went kallang. My friend lend me one of his wakeboards and it was the short and wide one? It was quite a hazzard to equipped yourself with the bindings, the fins.. The setup was pretty fast. He thought me the basics all over again.. but i got it rather fast. ( heh.. the 2nd time now) Like every other surf sports, or even skating, you got names for stuns..The first stun i learn i guess is the simple one , is called "surfing the wake". It's quite tedious in the beginning because when you change direction you've got to so called "break" in other words is your heels must go down into the water. Well my board did slip a couple of times. I tried two other stuns which is surface 360 and powerslide. All this was like a piece of cake to my fren, and well till now i cant master powerslide. I gave up. haha... but i'll try again next time. I thought it was damn cool ! To me is about how you control your board, balancing and how much weight you put on your toes. This will determine huge spray of water... arghh right now i feel like doing it again! :D

oh shit... i'm running late... schoool here i come...!!!!!!

Winamp playing : Dan Hill - Sometimes when we touch

First tuition lesson

I'm going for my first tuition lesson soon. Quite nervous..haha.. I never had tuition before, though i did accompany my friend once to tuition. Hence, i don't quite know how is like in someone's house giving tuition... i think i better get going first. I need some time to look for the place..:D Anyway, i just surf for some books, and for those Nicholas Sparks fan, here is his new book! nice cover! Actually almost all his book covers are really nice... will blog when i'm back [/edit-15.18]

Looking forward to the weekends

Presentation went well today, just that my group was kinda of a little disadvantage cos we are the last group and there weren't much time left. Everyone was a little impatient, and my tutor was indirectly rushing us, making it more tense for my team mates. But i guess we did our best, i think that's enough for now.. so glad! Projects are a bye bye now.. Now i've to concentrate on my outside projects that i'm working on. Tomorrow i'll have to attend a speech seminar which will last for around 3 hours or so. After which i'll be going for my swimming meeting, i guess they will resume training soon. It's not known that SARs can be spread through water, and who will be in the right mind to swim when they are sick? Goood! i miss training..

Last night, i was forced to sleep earlier because one of my cousins got a nightmare so he wants me to accompany him to sleep. He's so troublesome! I've to wear pyjamas, sleep within not more than half an arm's length away from him...blahh.. haha in order just to make him sleep, i've to spend time finding pyjamas...like if i've any.. haha..but i found one fortunately. don't think anyone wears pyjamas to sleep now, at least for the guys? so i slept, woke up 2 hours later after he's sound asleep, changed back do my drawing...make breakfast...and went to school for my presentation.

I was reading the newspaper today, i heard about the preparations for the National Day Parade 03. Saw this girl with the design for this year NDP's logo. I thought it was quite nice..I wouldn't say it's like extremely nice though, cos i thought it's quite simple? maybe simple is not the word to describe..but i can't think of the word now... Any comments on it?

Heard that primary schools, secondary .. are extending the closure of schools? Looks like i've the company of the kids for another period of time, in fact i hadn't heard anything from my uncles nor aunties at all.. It's good anyway, makes the house more lively! I'm going wakeboarding this Sunday!! I'm so so so SO looking forward to it! I wanted to join the BigWalk this year..but i really want to win the digital camera! no..no.. that's not the reason why i wanna participate.Everyone is so afraid of SARs, i'm still looking for pple to go ... :(

Heard the Oliver at esplanade is good.. Henry was telling me that his $76 was worth it. The cast was very good.. the little boy and lady was damn cute! He has good vocals..etc..:D Of cos not refering to the complains he made about the esplanade theatres. When everything seems so majestic on the outside, he was damn irritated when people needed to move from their seats. It's like when one person needs to move, everyone in the row gotta stand up to make space for the person to walk through. Perhaps they should do something about it huh.. in fact this isn't the first time i heard about such complains.. so for those of you who are heading down for some musicals, plays..concerts.. something to know..

btw though i'm not a great fan of Leslie cheung, his death was the most shocking April's fool joke.. I love his song "Zhui" ( the cantonese version). hmm.. saddening..

hah.. i'm gonna play neopets with my cousins now.. :D *don't remind me of my drawings*

The head has not heard, until the heart has listened

Winamp playing : CareBears - i care for you [lols..]

Presentation

I just came back from work not long ago. I'm going to school in an hour time, gonna reach school slightly earlier. I'm having one of my presentations today, so have to make sure that everything works well before it even started. I usually would prefer presentations over tutorials, though some of my classmates are quite tensed about it. But today, i think i'm a little tired, so probably after this i'll take a short rest. I haven't decided on which shirt to wear, which tie to match. hmm...i just ran through the slides, briefly have an idea of what to say. Come to think about it, i think i've wasted my 3 days time designing my own template. It's still not what i really want..

Today i got no work in the evening, i promised to bring my cousins out to the supermarket to allow them to choose what food they want for dinner and i'll cook! Been sometime since i cook actually, everyday i'll be working outside so most of the time i'll just have to get a quick bite outside. I think that's pretty unhealthy and i guess kids should eat healthy 3 course meal..haha.. I'm quite looking forward to this late afternoon. It's sometimes so fun to be with kids, they never make you feel lousy or upset over things. They are so naive, innocent, whatever is spinning around them is either happiness or the other. The good thing is that they won't dwell on it, they can easily move on. Just when i thought having 6 kids at my house is a " i-can't-really-handle" kinda thing, i'm now wishing for a dozen! haha.. well i think i can open a childcare centre soon.. hoho!

Alright, i think i better get change, style up abit, and off to school! Hope my presentation will go smoothly... :D

The soul's escaping, through this hole that it's gaping
This world is mine for the taking!!!

Winamp playing : Eminen - Lose yourself [/edit]

SARs and ME

Finally i finish typing my report for my project, actually i'm still not done with the other projects which are unfortunately dued next week. I've been facing the computer for the past few days for hours and hours till late night. Next week i'm gonna have my presentation as well, and right now i feel i've got even more to do! My mind is still pretty much asleep..

Because of SAR :

i slacked more at work ( ghost town of late )

Hot topic in school... everyone is like going " SArr...SArr...SArr.." echoes of it fill the canteen..

i frequent the hospital more often

swimming training was postponed

Tuition was postponed as well till the following week

Petitions online from both poly and uni grads (simply lame, the government won't give a damn to that)

The following is an extract from yesterday's new paper.

"WHY aren't the Institutes of Technical Education (ITE), polytechnics and universities ordered to close - just like the rest of the schools?

That is what students from these institutions and their parents are asking. If MOE says such students are more mature, what about those in junior colleges?

Poly students are no older than JC students.

Mrs K Tan, the wife of a lecturer at Nanyang Polytechnic, asked: 'Are JC students considered more precious than polytechnic students?

'The ministries say that the reason for their decision is that university students are mature enough to make the right decisions - but aren't polytechnic students the same age as JC pupils?'

I personally feel that we should just drop this debate on whether we should close the poly and so on, i mean it's already said that our system is different from jcs. We are going semester by semester, this will affect our exams, those who are graduating as well.. anyway i see there's an increase in the no of people wearing the mask, taking precautions over SARs.. Seriously, the number of people who are infected are gradually increasing.. so people please take good care...

There had been so many things going on lately, i just feel so drained out. Things i don't know how to go about handling them, everything is going too swiftly, things are happening out of the blue, too sudden. Sometimes i just feel so lost alone. Then would i pick up my guitar or hit my piano, hoping that i would play away my hidden emotions...it's as though you feel like shouting but the words won't come out. "Can someone hear me shout?".. but well who will give a damn to that.. anyway in my previous blog, i said my parents might me making arrangements for my grandma back in Singapore, and because of the outbreak of SARs, they changed their minds. Though we share the same thoughts, but it was also dissapointment that i felt. By the way, my parents are in Australia now with my uncles and aunties, to avoid returning to Singapore for the time being. Looks like SARs had really affected me quite a bit in one way or another...

I'm feeling rather vexed now, gonna leave the sight of facing the computer for a few hours as i head down to the esplanade, boat quey for some photo shootings. Back to viewing the night scenes at Benjamin Sheares Bridge.

Earlier on i brought my cousins out for dinner, they were like so bored at home, i guess i need some "kids-entertainment-kit". I install some computer games on their PCs, loaded them with some more vcds, playstation games..

p.s : daven thanks for that card.. :)

And now it's just an image that I find
Like the paintings in my mind

Winamp Playing :Tommy Page - paintings in my mind

Why is it that we got school tmr

DETAILS OF SCHOOL CLOSURE

As an additional precautionary measure in response to concerns expressed by parents on the recent SARS cases, the Ministry of Education (MOE) and Ministry of Health (MOH) have decided to close all primary schools, secondary schools, junior colleges and centralised institutes from Thursday, 27 March 2003 to Sunday, 6 April 2003.

All school competitions and co-curricular activities scheduled between now and 6 April will be cancelled or postponed. The current school term, Term 2, will be extended into the June school holidays, to make up for losses in curriculum time.

The universities, polytechnics and Institute of Technical Education will continue to operate as normal. These institutes of higher learning have a different system of operation from our national schools. Furthermore, the students in our post-secondary institutions are older and are better able to understand the situation and take the necessary precautions.

everyone is asking me that question..yap that's the answer! Alright school as per normal, for the others who are gonna have holidays! Enjoy, please take good care! :P
My cousins are jumping for joy now, i guess i'll not have to wake up that early then...:) Anyway i do hope there is no holiday for us now, if it is so means that we will be having shorter holidays after exams.. i rather not then..

Winamp playing : Sun yan zi - yong yuan

Life as a babysitter

Yes!! i'm gonna look after my cousins - 6 of them, all in primary school, for 2 weeks! i must say it's really not easy! Reason : Our parents are away at Thailand for a wedding dinner and they decided to stay there for 2 weeks. Heard the bride is a Thai and the groom is a Singaporean, so they held a wedding ceremony here and the second one back at Thailand. That must be tiring...

Yesterday was the first day i actually experienced looking after so many kids, despite having one of their maids here. It actually doesn't make any difference when i'm home. Let's see, i've to wake up at 5 the lastest, make breakfast, wake them up at 530am (that's really a hazzard!) i can't, they are sleeping so soundly! In fact, part of me felt so bad to wake them up from their little wonderlands.. hah so yesterday morning, the maid was busy so i had to help my cousin tie her hair? She's in primary 3, and her hair is really long and my clumsy hands just couldn't grab all of her hair and i've no slightest idea on how to tie? hehe so i just grab wat i can and tie it. ahah it was hmmm messy with strands of hair sticking out. :( i've tried my best...haha..:X so she screamed " KOR KOR! my hair!!!!!!!!" hahah... That's the first day of school! hhah..., more to come i guess...

Sunday i brought them out for dinner, nothing really fascinating, just some fast food which they love. Thanks to Mac donalds coupons that help me save money! haha.. ok i'm not being cheapskate but you know... money isn't easy to earn..haha.. We went to archade, play some games like daytona, bish bash champ? (not quite sure wat's that) hand was really pain after that, not because i was hitting it, but rather my cousins were hitting my hand that i stupidly placed them on the button! We went to take neoprints, photos as well. We saw a group of Japanese tourists, and they took a picture with us, after we offer our help to help them take a group picture. I must say kids really are the "natural-kind-of-expressions" when it comes to photo taking... no fake smiles, etc... anyway i did enjoyed myself, i always did when there's kids around. i simply love them to the core! That's the best day of the week i guess..

I had finally managed to register for my GCE exam. Due to some science subjects because of the practicals part, i faced some problems, i'm glad is over. It's really not a piece of cake studying for it as well as handling my current school work, projects, work, tuitions, etc.. i'll probably be the top flunker next year when the results are announced. You may think then why in the first place take the exam? well, i guess i shan't delay it any longer as i did last year, i'll just try my best...

I'm too tired now, gonna sleep and wake up in 3 hours time....

Winamp playing : Matchbox twenty - why can't we be friends

A busy week

Haven't got the time to really update, was absolutely busy. My daily routine for this week turns out to be, going to school in the morning, on days that class ends early, i'll be going for training as well as dance practice, after which i'll go to work. The day will end at around 11pm when i get back home, do some house-keeping stuffs. Finally, i'll settle down to do my assignments which usually drags after 3am, leaving me not much time to sleep. The days continue, and i guess i hadn't slept for more than 15 hours since last Friday. This is gonna continue for sometime, i guess..

Today, finally i managed to squeeze in some time to help Raymond fix his computer, after him bugging me for weeks or even months? We head down to Sim Lim, to get some stuffs and was at his house downloading programs after programs. Glad is done, hope there won't be any problems after that, hah..

Anyway this few days, i've been meeting alot of very rude people, both in school and at work. was so irritated with them, and i've a classmate whom i've to work with for project. It was the first time that i get so annoyed over a project, she was ordering every member in the team to do this and that, she would say " eh didn't i ask you to do research on this? where is it? i'm so sick and tired of reminding you!" or "You think we have alot of time is it? I don't care, you have to give me the report on this, so i can do the conclusion,blahhh...BETTER DON'T DELAY!" i'm so sick of her attitude, no manners and respect at all! But that didn't happen to me, just that she's been calling me up in the middle of the night about the project, and being the sacastic her, she kept saying about our attitude when it comes to project. yah, wait a minute, who's the one doing the research? who's the one doing the analysis? who's the one doing the typing? who's the one who is shaking leg at home ? Can someone please knock some sense into her? I'm so crossed with her attitude, but then again i thought perhaps all these are interculated in her by the environment she's in. At least, i'm glad this my first and final project with her. I was thinking and i thought it was a good experience too, at least i get to know how is like, how to handle and work with such people around.

My mum came back from Australia yesterday, i'm glad to say that now that the war had started. It's still safer at home, though i would never say we'll be perfectly safe. I'm still catching up with the news on it, it's still hard to believe, the war had come so swiftly. I never imagine that war would breakout in these days, i was too naive. I read alot on the history of Europe, the wars, etc. I never thought it would happen to this generation that we're living in. I just hope these wouldn't have to last long, though i feel it will. I'll pray for the refugees at Jordan, hoping that they will be safe.. My parents are making plans for my grandma to return to Singapore, she's in Penang, still home is the safer place. Hopefully, she'll be able to come back... i miss her so much.

I'm not able to go wakeboarding this weekend like i said i would, the reason being that my friend is going to help out with some training stuffs, so we'll postponed it to next week. Moreover, i'm not free as well. Will be bringing my younger cousins out for dinner on Sunday, because my uncles and aunties will have to attend a wedding dinner. Most probably, they will stay over at my house on Saturday, means i've to go back home on weekends.

I'm had an interesting conversation with Mr Lee last night, he's a lawyer and yap he was telling me about this case he is working on, about sibling rivalry over matters relating to money. Sometimes studying law can be interesting, of cos i'm not saying that such things are interesting, but you get to work on different cases and form there you learn about different perspective of things and so on... Suddenly, it reminds me of a similar issue that had happen to my friend, wouldn't state who is it here. Then i gather my thoughts, money seems the thing that everyone is fighting for, often a times neglecting the more important things around them. Well i don't know, maybe life's getting more practical? no idea.. hmm but after which we move in to talk about polictical stuffs, which i'm interested in. And i wasted my one hour more of sleep for something knowledgable, so no regrets..haah..

The Singapore Biathlon is next weekend right? A few of my friends are training like 5 times a week to prepare for the 1.5km swim and 10km run! For me, i think it's quite challenging especially to do it within a certain timeframe to beat your opponents. I missed the closing date which is 9march if i'm not wrong.. argh!! else, i will be having tons of fun preparing for it, and i think it will be really cool with around 1400+ participants competiting against each other!

Winamp playing : John Mayer - Love song for no one

Wonderful weekend / recording

This weekend is one of the best since beginnning of the year, had tons of fun at chalet, though was tired because i travelled quite abit from chalet to work and back. I had finished doing work for my mum, and for the first time it was a perfect piece. Anyway i had signed up for a design/photography course thing! i'm so happyy!! Chalet was fun really fun, furthermore i get to know new friends and one of them shared the same interest as me and that is designing. He's really good, i've seen a few of his drawings, and i think i got to really work hard on mine.

Actually, i've another chalet to go to later, which is at Changi, some of the people from the chalet i went earlier are going too. I guessed this may be more fun, cos there's more groups going and yap i probably join them later for some water sports.

I'm at my friend's house now doing some recording of songs. :) really quite happy that it's back to the days strumming on my guitar, singing , so on.. especially when the songs didn't turn out the way it should be, but the process of it was great, i guess its the passion for it. now i've got the inspiration to write more songs, more instrumental pieces as well...

Tomorrow's back to school, have to start working on my projects. oh yea, i need to go register for private As exam too! gotta put a reminder in my hp before i screwed it up again. Alright, i'm gonna continue with my recording and gonna sleep for an hour or so and i've to go for interview.. :D wish me luck!

Winamp playing - My Sassy Girl - I believe (piano)

Getting too physical

Today's my last paper! I had fundamental maths today, whooo, really fundamental, it doesn't make any difference with my tutor's hint either. Will see how's the results.. but it's over anyway! Rejoice!! i went for a 4.8km run today, after which went for training. Coach was really nice, he ordered pizza for us after training.. yummm.. Oops.. i realised i'm always talking about food! hehe..i saw some people in my school drinking the vanilla coke? anyone tried that? my idea of it is like the taste of the ice cream float? creamy taste...

Tomorrow it's the chalet, the weird thing is i'm not as excited as i'm when i first agreed to go. I'll be bringing the food in the afternoon, yes food again! it's all at my house and will be helping the girls to carry their barangs and stuffs, after that i'll be heading to work. Most probably i'll have to go back all the way to pasir ris, that's like... :X The initial number of people who is going was really little, and now there was like around 30+ pple going. So gonna wake up early again, go to the market get more food, i shouldn't have tell anyone i don't have to go school tomorrow, then i don't have to ... haha. i'll also have to go meet my friends, carry their bags to my house, cos they all got to go school, need to get the playstation from John. see, i wish i have school tomorrow, at least i won't have to do this all alone. actually i'm quite tired after today's training...

My friend is asking me to join him for wakeboarding sometime next week. I only tried wakeboarding once.. and i must say it's not easy.. especially the impact when you hit the water. I've seen some photos of Singapore top wakeboarders from my friend's album, it's really coool. Shots like turning in the air and so on... i wish i can do that...Kallang would be a good place to wakeboard...the whole idea and picturing of it, really urge me to go... :) Are you feeling it too? hah

I'm looking forward to my pay, hope to have some money left to buy my spectacles, i really love the titanium one! I'll be starting tuition with this two students soon. A sec one boy and a primary six girl in April, more work, less time for fun, entertainment, sleep, blog ? Alright, i need to go pack my stuffs for tomorrow, wish you all have a great great weekend!! :) And, Timothy, hope you will cheer up bit more, your friends are always here for you, though i know that it might not always help, but we're always here to listen.. :D

Take a break from your work, play some games, corny ones too... enjoy!

You sheltered me from harm.
Kept me warm, kept me warm
You gave my life to me
Set me free, Set me free
The finest years I ever knew
were all the years I had with you....

You taught me how to love,
What its of, what its of.
You never said too much,
but still you showed the way,
and I knew from watching you.
Nobody else could ever know
the part of me that can't let go

A very soothing, nice song. It may sound familiar, it was taken as one of the adverts of a particular condominium.. :D

Winamp playing : Bread - I would give everything i own

Common test week

One good thing about common test is that we can go straight home after the paper, so usually i'll go to work after that, end work earlier. :) Yesterday's paper was hmm i would say a little challenging but still manageable.

Anyway, after class i went for lunch with my friends, we're at food junction. As usual, we always head for the Japanese food together. ( it's really good, and it's been a long time since i ate it) So we were queuing, it's was freaking long, we were talking and joking around and suddenly i felt two taps on my shoulder. then, i turn around, i saw that girl. yah, i'm using "that girl", because until now i've no idea wat's her name is. Just in case you're clueless about what i'm talking, she's the girl i mention in my earlier blog who gave me that bear on val's day? She's quite short or maybe small size? i feel like a huge giant to her! :X so she ask whether she could join me and my friends for lunch. i was like... ermm sure.. so while having lunch, it was so damn weird! she was sitting opposite me, i didn't feel like talking, so i just continue eating. After a few minutes, she started asking me whether i did go for lectures cos she didn't see me around, what school i was from, how many siblings i've got? what sports i play? so she go on and on.. I was totally bored, tired and part of me which i could go invisible and run out of the canteen. i'm not the kind of guys who can talk naturally with girls? I'm more of the shy and quiet type when it comes to talking to girls that i'm not close with. I was trying to ask for her name, so at least i'll know her by her name? but she was talking non-stop. So basically everything ended when Dennis, my friend came and ask us to go to gym. so phew! The way i put it might sound as though she's not attractive and so on, but frankly speaking, she's quite pretty in a way, but definitely not my kind of girls. Then again, what would be my kind of girls?

Going to school soon, backaches, dozed of while studying and slept with my head on the table the whole night.. arghh.. can't wait for this week to be over! And yes! i'm looking forward to the chalet on Saturday!!

Winamp playing : Puddle of mud - She hates me

Sports school in Singapore

My coach was talking about the new sports school that opens next year. "Should the sports school be limited to Express students?". In my opinon, it's should not only limit to express students. You see, not everyone is born to be excelling well both in sports and academically. I must agree that in Singapore we tend to pay too much attention and often stress too much on students' academic abilities and the fact that without that it would not represent anything. So what if you are going to perform well in sports, just because you can't memorise history in school, can't apply formulas for maths and so on, you are being eliminated. I think it's really unfair to say that you want a student to do well in both factors. Normal stream students can still perform well in their stream, being in a slower pace, but that doesn't mean they do not do well academically too? So what are they trying to imply? This narrow-minded view of Singapore should change. Ok, going back to the point when they decided on building the Sports school which is to train teenagers to become potential runners, players etc? Therefore, we should exclude the point of their academic abilities as to who's to enter the Sports school. Well i just feel that you don't need brains to start running, but stamina. There's so much more in life than just books, exams etc. We can't have the best of everything, but we can make the best out of something..

I'm quite sick now, and my common tests is just next week. Arghh.. to add on to that, i'm not study for any of my papers yet. I'm so dead now. Yap, the As results had been release, congrats to all my friends who did extremely well! Alright, do anyone knows when's the registration for GCE Examinations (private candidates) ? i think i better go off to study for my paper tomorrow. Good luck to those who are having exams next week..

Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear
and curse
When you're chewing on
life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...
And...

...always look on the bright side
of life...
(Whistle)

Always look on the light side
of life...
(Whistle)

I mean - what have you got to lose?
You know, you come from nothing
- you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing.

c'mon lets stop sighing and whistle ~

Winamp playing : Monty Python - Always look on the bright side of life

No time to blog

These few days been busy at training and at work, was having 4 hours plus of training in the scorching heat.. and result in my body burning now. :( I think i had better concentrate on my swims, realise that there's room for more improvements.. can't help it, my arms are aching badly.

Was visiting Jean in the hospital for the past few days, feel horrible, when all i can do it to just looked blankly at her. I could see the mark of dried tears on her face and again she was back to the Jean 4 mths ago. I'm not good at words, i don't know how to console pple, especially in a bgr relationship thing. All i can do is listen, and i really really thinks that sux alot. I just hope she'll recover from this depression soon.

Recent news on the car that lands on the Mrt track, so what's your comment on that? i was rather shocked to realise that the car actually land on the track? It never happened before, was totally astonished. Then, do you think a driver is needed in the new north east line? i feel that a driver is needed at least it's more secure and can they prevent accidents like this to happen? No they can't.

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue

Winamp playing :New radicals - Someday we'll know

Back at home

After a long turn, i'm back at home again. Although i know this is only temporary, i'm cherishing every single bit of it. The week's holiday had begun,
and i'm buried with loads of work, that i never find myself getting done. Something bad about me is that i always do things that are consider
least important. Like the past few days, when i was at home, i was reading The King of Torts by John Grisham, when i should be finishing up my tutorials, and read up my literature. i would say i fancy reading books by John Grisham.
It makes me really feel like reading on. I'm about to finished this book. I must say it's really good.. :) Jean was reading this book, Milkrun by Sarah Mlynowski , it's more romance, dates and so on. Not really my kind of book , though i still read sometimes.. yah sometimes.. but i must say i like the coverpage of that book alot.. :) any books to recommend? or maybe i should just get my work done. :(

i beginning to listen to more stephanie sun's song recently. i think her lastest album was good. but i mean i downloaded it from kazza. Oops.. the wrong way to support an artist, well i'm broke. when was the last time i bought any albums ? long long long time back...

I'm sooooooo hungry now. so gotta go cook.. let's see if there's any "food" for me to cook! i feel like eating pasta or butter rice? shall pamper myself alittle... dun drool.. :D

- off to the supermarket -

Winamp playing : Stephanie Sun - Yan Shen