just got home from sentosa. anyway i've been so tired lately that i sleep before 1am everyday now. not everyday last week maybe.. yesterday went for training, pretty good getting all the exercise over again!
i'm going to cut my hair later in the evening. Meanwhile i shall pack my room later; enjoy the music.

Raine got me this very nice blue and yellow pull-over from Far east for Christmas gift. Really nice, the size's just right and i like it alot! Alright, i owe her a gift now.. anyway she's gone to ting's house to stay yesterday, so peace for a day. but ain't sure if she's coming home today. she should be at home to iron the clothes! lol there's a huge pile building its way towards the ceiling. ok ok maybe i should just help to iron since i'm free now, afterall i've to iron my as well.. ;)

hey guys i'm so tired these days. don't know why, maybe cause of the sickness that's coming back to me.

there again, i'm someone u look for when u r lonely. am i jus so pathetic.

however enjoy myself pretty much today with the company of my long-time no see friends. Really long. 9 years! Okay, i met up with Sarah,Lydia,Nat,Miguel,Matthew,Jinglong. whao! actually stood infront of sarah for 30 min sincei reach earrly and i didnt have her no with me since i only contacted the guys and the rest got the girls. i din even recognise her. goodness me! was like how retarded looking at each other pondering if she's the person i'm meeting. had a good laugh after that.

gonna go for training tmr. real early. so probably gotta slp soon after my medication. ;)

Trapped inside my head
I hear these voices
They tell me things
Like memories I thought were dead.

These voices remind me
Of who I am
They tell me what I was
And what I'm meant to be.

But now and then
They put me down
They kick me about
And the tears begin.

Right now i'm at David's house waiting for all of them to bathe and change. Not all of them stayed over at his house so i'll only be bringing david, david's sis, bryan, jerome, who else? oh brenda will be joining us.. and yea we've benjamin too! At least i've brenda to help me look after all those super hyperactive kids.

Today's gonna be just the last free day of the month before i start work for the countdown. And maybe you can easily spot me at sentosa. ;) Got lots of tips from mel about what food nice and what is not there. ;)

i'm in state of dilemma.

Christmas Eve and Christmas itself have been rather packed. Like last year, we celebrated Daven's bday on the eve of Christmas and did a countdown for both his birthday and christmas. This year was a little special because it was not held at my house as many would like to. I thought let's have something new, so we all head down to the beach for a party. Around 40-50 of us turned up. But i went there in the evening, went town to do some last minute shopping as i wasn't around in Singapore for sometime. Anyway Daven's party was a huge success and the stay over at the hotel and chalets was awesome! I guess everyone pretty much enjoy themselves. I met Janice there surprisingly, she was having her family gathering there. She asked how was everything; pretty touched by her concern once again. I left the hotel pretty early today at 8am.

Went over to my cousin, david's house. I've to be there early because i promise to help out at the kitchen. lol. I'm like the only male 'chef' and surrounded by aunties and i naturally blend in as an uncle. It's good to help out at the kitchen, you get to eat first! haha. I finally get to see my cousin jeanette after so long! David's been talking about how sweet was she and so on... i've receive a perfume from my uncle (david's family). A shirt (brenda's family). A belt (Bryan's family). bodyshop voucher (Jeanette's family)..

I left David's house unwillingly at 5pm, since it was so much fun. Met shortie lil crazy pam to go to Elaine's house. Exchange gifts always put me in a difficult spot of what to buy. i think i bought the ever worst gift. i bought a candle, beautifully decorated christmas candle. And what did i get in return - a parker pen from elaine's cousin (paul) haha.. that's something good in return. and who got my candle? elaine's sister! ahhaa... but i think she likes it! Didn't talk much with Elaine either and that makes me feels really weird once again. I remember the scene when she was exactly opposite me taking food from the trays; she look at me and i did the same for 5 secs and then someone call out to her. She did ask me about my trip and everything and while she spoke i felt a lil cold. hahs.. but i really did. i was kinda distracted not by the way she talks but rather still feeling funny standing at the balcony with my mind flying off to find an answer. Its as though the pathway is broken and the signs are unclear. I know there's more to come and i can feel myself really having contradicting thoughts.

I promise david and the kids to bring them to wcp tml. hope it doesn't pours...

hey peeps! manage to do the layout at last for my guestbook cos the server always kicks me out.

so pple please sign my guestbook. You can sign it as many times as you want to.

left with a few more shots in the evening and i'm done! Going back to Singapore tomorrow. ;)

gonna go malaysia in a couple more more hours. wish i could stay here for long. carefree, pple ard here makes me feel happy, makes me feel that life's so fun etc..

back in spore's where i've to face back the same old probs. but nothing last forever, i'm glad i'm feeling this way even if its for 2 weeks or so.

I'll be busy again when i'm back in Singapore. chill out guys, gotta go slp getting quite late already. Enjoy da weekends, and CHRISTMAS IS COMING!! hohoho

Hey people check out my little cousin's david's blog!

Leave a msg at his tagboard, and he'll be overjoyed. ;)

I just caught up with a slight headache this morning. Phew thank god its okay now, else it'll probably ruin my day.

Pete just call saying he would like me to go to Queen Victoria Market. No idea what's that, but i believe it's kind of for tourist? let's see..

I hope i don't have to spend my Christmas in Malaysia, hope everything goes smoothly. Seriously, i can't imagine days in Singapore again. In a week or two, school's gonna start. A new semester, A brand new year - A new beginning?

`updated my reminders. Thanks corrine! It's my treat when i'm back :)

8 more days to christmas & dav's bdae!
Are you guys ready to party?

Camp offically ended few hours ago. Pretty fun. Really make lots of friends! Most importantly it teaches me more than just physical sport. So lets see, its free and easy for me now.. i've abt 3-4 days before i head to malaysia? Most probably will go look for my friend who's studying in melbourne and now working in a fast food restaurant as part time.

yawns. sleepy.

p.s : Thanks corrine for your job intro; will reply u asap lastest by Friday, cos not too sure of my schedule. But pretty cool job u have for me! =)

Hey peeeps! Just finished a report. tired. Well, yea i'm helping my dad with his admin work over here, before i head for my camp. I've finished a late net meeting with some big man in black over in the states. First attempt, quite cool, gd experience.. :)

RAFTING AT VICTORIA! i can't wait.....

Taxis are freak expensive here. back to more work.. 6 dec..its coming! 2 more days...

I wonder if there's something wrong with blogger. But to view the updates of my blog, please go to
http://www.jeddfishh.blogspot.com ( with the www.) else you will face some problems opening the page. :)

Results was ok, just that i thought i could get my A for network technology but ended up a B. Was really disappointing.

Yesterday, met Daven, Chris, Christian, Paul, Ben for pool in the afternoon. Quite fun! Haven't touch pool for like months. Half-way through, daven left for soccer and i went to the airport to meet the rest of my friends. Yes, i still did went to the airport. I met some friends whom i haven't seen for 2 years plus; pamela, meiling, wendy, yinghui, john, nicholas. The other 12 who were there still see them around in town sometimes. Hah anyway i was really shocked when i see pam, hahs cos she got this very cool short hair , a little spiky on the top, and she look so cute in it! hah her dressing was alittle hiphop? Perhaps it was her pants and she's quite short..:X Took some pics with her and i've to really bent down...hhah ok i shall stop being mean. Anyway i don't know why i was there too, afterall i didn't even talk to Elaine at all. Maybe she was busy filling in the others with their questions? After which went to Elaine's house, had some desserts and cakes and photo-taking again.

Went shopping with John, Vincent and Daven today in town. Gawd i'm so happy i bought this baby pink polo-t with white horizontal lines (big spaces) in between. Hah i don't care if pple think is sissy or wat to wear pink... but i think its a super cool color. :) John bought a watch for dissel! Super retro but ex! My dream watch! Nvm, i saw nicer ones.. self-consoling, arghs. Went for coffee at coffee bean, town wasn't really as crowded as i expected though. After some talks over coffee, John was filling us with his Ns life, and i'm getting quite excited to go NS. Well i just like challenges...hehs. Daven was really unlucky, he keeps knocking into people and banging into things, and even in the toilet the cleaner left the mop at the cubicle door, and when he came out the mop just bang onto his head. What a day..

Dinner was spend barbequing food at Pam's place. Quite good food, i just love the sting ray...yummmms! still quite full now. But during the whole bbq , i didn't talk to Elaine too, though we exchange glances but a smile is all we gave. Yes, i'm feeling abit weird, she's like acting so weird. I just don't know what to say to her. I don't know, maybe i'm just too sensitive. Really enjoyed my weekends, that is when i put my mind off those things that have been bothering me.

I've gotta go pack my bag for my trip tomorrow. I'll probably be back during Christmas, till then i'll blog when i've the time there... :)