:: Penang Trip ::

I've been thinking of visiting my grandma for so long, and now my dream is shattered once again. i'm feeling totally SHIT..completely SHIT!!! Considering being emotional? i've always been emotional if you know me well enough. Sometimes i do wish i'm less emotional, less sensitive ( to the pple ard me, to the things that happen, to everything in all aspects) then perhaps i'll feel less troubled, more contented, but i just can't do it!

I see it in your eyes
Your careless words bear no disguise
It came as no surprise
I should have realised
By now...

I truly miss my brother and sister...

[23.10]
Whew, just finished cleaning the windows, so much easier compared to my house last time. had a great dinner just now, was cooking together with Mrs Lee. They loved the Kangkong that i cooked, but i like her lemon chicken.. Yumm.. right now they're watching the vcds i brought over with me. Looking at them, i can't help but put on a smile on my face, first couple that i know of ever so loving.. :)

I'm not feeling any much better though, i've just drawn a sketch, my first piece this year. no idea how i actually got started drawing.. anyway thanks to those who commented, those who gave me advices. I just need time to get over it, meanwhile i shall dance myself out, sing my soul out, swim till i fly...

That I would be good even when I am overwhelmed
That I would be loved even when I was fuming
That I would be good even if I was clingy

Winamp playing : That I Would Be Good by Alanis Morissette

:: so wrong...wrong.. ::

well i dunno what happen to the archives, i hate blogger, things always disappear here and there. No idea why. Not in the mood to go think about it or even solve it. I'm so so so so so so freaking angry with myself.. I have been telling myself that life's gonna go on no matter what, but darn it! i do need a BREAK from all this freaking shit that is going on. Just what have i done WRONG?

I'm shit tired! All this while, i've been trying to do as i'm told, just what else have i done not enough? Or am i just a puppet that they deprived of?

Give me some air to breathe, that's all i really asked for..

Sometimes I wonder
How I ever make it through
Through this world without having you
I just wouldn't have a clue
And sometimes it seems
Like this this world's closing on me
And there's no way of breaking free
Then I see you reach out for me, ohhhhh

Sometimes I wanna give up
Wanna give in
Wanna quit the fight
Then one look at you baby
Can make everything alright
Make everything alright

but for all that, it's something i ever dream about.. a distant dream

:: When i see you smile ::

i'm feeling so crappy today,smile all day long..pple may think i'm mad..but well who cares.. met a few friends for swimming and went gym after school. was really feeling good after the week's of work, finally a time to relax...

I just came home an hour ago, gonna go cut my hair later. It's kinda long, no hair style in mind that i wanna cut. So fastt...!! next week's chinese new year! can't wait! i'll be going to Penang to visit my grandma, jean's coming along too! I'll be going for about 3 days. Though, i still miss the reunion dinners i had every year, but well, not everything will stay the same as time passes, at least not for this year..

anyway i'm gonna go cut my hair now... :) i'll continue later..

alright, i'm back from cutting my hair. My head feel so light..hahah... feel kinda fresh too! My fringe is like kinda short though, haha but i'm feeling gooood!! i hope i don't look too weird.. i'm bringing my little cousins out later for dinner, my uncle and aunt will be having a function tonight.Where should i bring them for dinner? hmmm.. So i'm so called the "babybro" tonight.. I've got this really cute cousin, she's really a sweet lovely one.. when she smile, really make my day! :) Oh yeah, the Singtel Advert is up i heard. Haven't got the chance to see it! hope to catch it later.... :)

i read in the papers about "The Singapore Amazing Race". Ok, in case you haven't read about it, it's organise by Singapore Adventurer's Club.Its a 36-hour non-stop race, around Singapore in October.The club's race will take contestants to places such as the disused railway track that runs from Bukit Timah to Jurong, the hot spring in the Gambas Avenue area and to Kusu, St John's and other islands.Setting off at midnight, they will be able to take along only a street directory and a small amount of money.Clues to guide them from stop to stop aren't gonna be straightforward. For example, they will be asked to find the tree featured on the old $5 bill. The aim of this race is to let people see Singapore like they never before.

I always thinks that the programs in Singapore are always copyrights from other countries, take for eg those Jack Neo shows, a new show coming up on Channel 5 " wow wow world" A show related to food/travel in Singapore, host by Jack Neo and Vernetta. It's actually a copyrighted show from a taiwan programme call "shi zi lu kou" Can't they think of better programms? No matter how good they are , they will always be second-rated. but well for this amazing race in Singapore, i'm kinda curious about the insights of Singapore that i'm clueless about. As a Singaporean, i would really wanna know more about my country. Anyone interested to sign up?

:: yawnz ::

"If we were to walk in the woods and a spring appeared just when we became thirsty, we would call it a miracle.
And if on a second walk, if we became thirsty at just that point again, and again the spring appeared, we would remark on the coincidence.
But if that spring were there always, we would take it for granted and cease to notice it. Yet is that not more miraculous still?"

i chance upon this through the net, thought it was quite meaningful, so decide to post it up here. Take some time out of your busy work schedule, look at the people around you, "has it been ages since you talk to that somebody?" or "do you only go to the person when you need help from him/her?" "is there something more you could do for that someone?" Think about it..

Having break now, listening to Another Level "Guess i was a fool" which i've been listening to it repeatedly today. i kinda like the starting part! nice nice!! i shall go continue with my workk...

:: Terribly Sick ::

I'm currently having a very bad cough, headache that results my vision to be quite blur at times.. i'm feeling atrocious..It's been the 3rd day i'm feeeling like shit! arhh..

Oh man i hate this tag-board thing! its always down, and right now blogger is kinda down (unable to publish)

School's busy with the up-coming Open house. The business students, i suppose are trying to get us to register our names if we have friends we did Os in 2002, to stand a chance to win fabulous prizes, provided that friend of yours turn up. Some cool prizes like a palm top / nokia 7210 . Business students are always quite happening, i heard from Mel that they are having a "common health games", that's only applicable for biz students. Sounnds so fun!! But too baddddd.....

gotta go off to workk.. :)

:: ending of work / cold ::

Just returned home from work...i'm soooo sooooo tired. Chinese New Year is just weeks ahead and everyone's rushing to get new clothes, shoes, etc! Working is how tired these days.. but well i'm glad it will be over soon. I'll be quiting end of this month, which makes next Sunday my last day of work. Apparently, i can't find anyone who can change shifts with me. I've no choice. So i'll just be working on weekdays, and on weekends i'll look for another job or take a break first. I'm so broke now. So many Jan/Feb/March birthday gifts to buy.Got the 2nd present this month. 2more to go..:) i hope she'll like it. For some i'll just bake some cookies, kinda save cost for me because Mr Lee (my landlord) will be baking cookies for his wife on V-day. haha.. we spend the whole night till morning baking some cookies to do some testing. well of cos it tastes nice!! drools.. :)

Yesterday went to play tennis with Dav and friends, was quite fun(at least this time round i'm not the one picking up the balls all the time, hehe), my hand wasn't happy it had to stop. Hahha.. cos by then it was kinda late, need to go to work..Oh yeah, i got my guitar from Dav yesterday too, i'm so glad! Haven't been playing it for quite some time.. maybe i should teach Mr Lee how to play a song to impress his wife on V-day! haha.. on friday i found out that he's actually a very good basketballer.. He's a basketball captain from Pri school till University i suppose.. whao!! no wonder he's so tall.

My school recently have a new course which will be receiving its first batch of students this July. Its New Diploma in Dental Therapy. For those who are interested in health sciences, can consider this. But i look at the prospects, hmm to me is like not much, it seems like just the basics of dental therapists. But well...

Vision is the art of seeing the invisible

:: Confused / Messed up ::

I've been having a rather tiring day at work as well as in school. what makes it worse is the change in shifts in my workplace. I'm pretty unhappy about it because since they had asked me about my views for working during the weekdays and my answer was a negative. Why did they still put me to work on a weekday? Isn't that so dumb? But i didn't wanna make such a big fuss over it, so went to talk to my manager, and she agree that i could change my shift with someone else instead. Yup i'm still trying to find that someone else. Although this implementation will start in feb, but it kinda messed up my plans and arrangements for work as well as in school. So i'm currently hoping that i'll be able to find someone to swap shifts with...

The weekend's coming up, but as usual this weekend i've got to work but i'll only be working at around noon tomorrow. I'm looking forward to playing tennis with Dav, John, Jeremy and Alvin. I don't know if there's any last min changes, better not or it'll dampened my spirits alot. At least right now that's the only thing i could look forward to.

alwayssss look on the brighhhhht side of life... the nike advertisement is really interesting. I guess now alot of advertisements are using quotes / songs to allow consumers to remember it better. The most recent ones we have the carlsberg advertisement? ( whao, they must have spend millions of dollars in that ad) Then even OCBC have something like a quote? "Don't ask me, ask OCBC?" I guess its a very smart way, to keep their advertisement short, leaving a deep impression behind... I wonder when's that Singtel advertisement gonna be shown or is it shown already?. Update me if you see an advertisement on Singtel picturing a bride?

And ya, Vivian, hope you're feeling better.. smile :)

Gotta log off to do my work and accompany Uncle Lee for supper later at night. We'll be baking cookies tonight!

:: Pay Day ::

Well i met a old friend of mine, Zhijian, at the pool today, he's from my primary school, didn't really recognise him in the first place till he called me. Yeah surprise that he could actually recognise me after like about 6-7 years of not meeting up. Had a short chat, cos i've got my training to go to and he's gotta rush back home for dinner. Well we exchange contacts and stuff , hope to meet up with him for coffee one day.

I'm feeling quite happppy today.

• Got my pay today from one of the small part time during the hols
  
• NO WORK TODAY!!!!!!!
  
• Swimming training was pretty fine
  
• Met Zhijian
  
• Bought a gift for friend's birthday that is early Feb (kind of early, i know)
  

No reasons why i should sulk. Even right now i'm still in the joyous mood, it's hardly sometimes that the feeling of being happy. Like today i was talking to Vincent about somethings about life cos he was pretty upset with his life and stuff.. Sometimes i feel that we're probably living in paradise compared to others, and we don't even realise it or are you walking down streets littered with sparkling diamonds, and not even bothering to look at them, much less pick them up? Sometimes dwelling on your problems not gonna help. I guess at least for me, i've to really learn to move on. Look around you, and see the beautiful world where you could be living in. well i dunno why i'm talking about all this , some thoughts for the day perhaps...

Avril Lavigne is coming to Singapore on Saturday 25 Jan i heard! Oh it's for the MTV Asian award thing and she'll be having a mini concert thing? $50 bucks per person at Suntec. That's what i head. Aww... i really feel like going!! She's so cool and well i'm going ga-ga over her...haha... i wish i could go! but well....

Anyway i decided to do a quiz on personality? And guess what? i'm a fast food mascot? The description's kinda of funny! Well, gimme commments on that...:)


What's Your Personality Type?
brought to you by Quizilla

:: Paradox ::

I was reading and came across the word Paradox. Recently, i came across words that's with regards to the letter "P". Sometimes i feel Pathetic, Pessimistic and the list goes on, not forgetting the word Puppet, like the way people command me to do things. Well i must admit that i hate it, i mean its alright when pple came to me and ask for my help, i'll be more willingly to help if i could. But some pple just are ignorant about the way they say things and stuff, which can really screwed up your day!
Well, life is a paradox. Sometimes the more effort you put in, the least results you get. When you don't put any effort you get it, but you ain't satisfied. Sometimes it's just so contradicting, and most of the time we actually don't know what we want.

Anyway i've been living at smb for a week plus, i must say both the Lees have been really affable. They are really nice and at times corny.I must say they are really loving couples (In fact sometimes like a kid) opps! I just count myself pretty lucky to stay with them, be it temporary or what..

The week ahead seems pretty hectic, piles of things to do at work. Swimming trainings hours are extended , meetings and practice for dance, and lotssssssssss of books to read up. Haven't get ready to arrange my A'levels materials, I've like files of notes from John which i don't know where to start reading from. Ohhh....

The harder i practice, the luckier i get - Gary Player

:: At cousin's house ::

Rainy day, kinda spoil everything argh! Damn!! I'm suppose to like go cycling with my cousins and because of the rain they decided to go town. That's the worst place to go to during weekends! Picturing the jam between Wisma and Takashimaya, really puts me off! Brought my cousins to Swensens for ice-cream (despite the cold weather). As usual i had my favourite peppermint ice-cream. Yum yum!! Thought is was pretty cool sitting there rather than squeezing in the crowd. What makes it worse is that the chinese boyband "5566" or would you rather call them double five double six.( Definitely doesnt makes much sense to me) Despite the rain, everyone was like standing with their umbrellas waiting for their idols, not knowing that they cause a jam especially when it is raining, i'm so glad that i'm home.Really glad!! Listening to Five for Fighting - Superman, suddenly reminds me that i've still haven gotten the superman vcd or whatever you may call it from Aunt Suz, and that's from superman daven. I must admit i do miss him. haha.. don't get your minds tune too far away. Haven't seen him for sometime though, guess that's why. I met Eileen just now in town, apparently she was hooked at Zara sale. There was a up to 50% sale and she couldn't recognise me till awhile later. Do i change that much? I really wonder because people just stare at me twice before they finally know who i am. Yap, as i was saying i met Eileen, she said my hair is kinda like her dog's fur? DAMMN!! Though i must admit it's kinda long now, don't have the time to go for a haircut, but how can it be compared to her DOG? My god!!! Thinking back i think the last time i met her was like a year+ ago, and it was also at a sale. So you can presumed that when there's a sale there's Eileen. Time for dinner, i've gotta go help out and stuff.

:: Vivian cheer up ok? smilee.. :) ::

:: Tired /eyes shutting ::


hello this my first time doing a blog, it's bad and definitely room for improvement. Will continue to upgrade myself, lots to update on this blog, meanwhile stayed tuned. Had a tiring day at school, i guess that's basically why i nearly knock off during lecture. Met Vincent, Joyce for lunch today, heard many things from them. Well, you can count them as gossips..:p Oh yeah, finally Raymond and Ade are togther!!!! Yippy! and if you guys are reading this, "Congrats!!" I dun have to work tomorrow! how cool is that?? Got a call from my uncle this afternoon, gotta bring my cousins out to East Coast Park for cycling tomorrow. :) Whao, it's been so long since i cycled, as in leisure cycling, so excited! There's swimming training tomorrow...arghh damn.. i'm late!!

:: Off for work ::