Have you got the blues ?

I didn't talk to anyone accept the customers today. I'm very tired, i'm gonna take my medicine and sleep. That's an escape.

Today's timothy's bday! Happy birthday dude! :) i'll rem that mini countdown... :D

Winamp playing : Nora Jones - cold cold heart

Bookcravers

Check this out! Book Craves Good deal?

but do they just have 1 book for each title? weird..


Winamp playing : Stevie b - when i dream about you

A story from Yin Yue Ri Ji - 93.3fm

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for
those who fear,
too long for those who grieve, too short for those
who rejoice,
but for those who love, time is eternity."

My husband is a scientist by profession. I love him
for his rock-steady
nature, and I love the warm feeling while I lean
against his broad shoulder.

Three years in the courtship, and now, two years
into marriage, I have to
admit, I am getting tired. Reasons for loving him
have now transformed into
the cause of my restlessness. I am a sentimental
woman; thus sensitive and
fragile when it comes to relationships and feelings.
I yearn for romantic
moments, like a little boy yearning for candy. My
husband is a complete
contrast; his lack of sensitivity, and above all,
his inability to bring
romantic moments into our marriage, has disheartened
me.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision,
that i want a divorce
"Why?" he asked, shocked.
"I am tired, and there aren't reasons for everything
in the world" I
answered.

He kept silent, deep thoughts the whole night with
cigarette lit throughout.

My disappointment intensified. A man who can't even express his anguish, his
hopes that I'd stay on... what else can I hope from
him?Finally he asked, "
What can I do to change your mind?"

Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a
person's personality, and I
guess, I have started losing faith in him. Looking
deep into his eyes, I
slowly answered : "Here is a question, if you can
find the answer in my
heart, I will change my mind. If I see a flower on a
mountain cliff and I
really love it, and in picking the flower, it's sure
to cause death, will
you do it for me?"

He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow..."
My heart just sank on
hearing his response.

The next morning, he was not around when I awoke. I
saw a piece of paper
with his characteristic messy scribble. It goes:

"Dear,
I would not pick that flower for you, but please
allow me to further tell
you my reasons," The first sentence has already
broken my heart.

I continue reading.

"You often type using the computer and always crash
the PC system, then end
up crying before the monitor; so I have to save my
fingers so that I can
help to restore the programmes.

You always misplace the house key; thus I have to
save my legs to rush home
to open the door for you.

You love travelling but always lose your way in a
new city; I have to save
my eyes to lead you the way.

You always has the cramp whenever your "good friend"
approaches every month;
I have to save my palm so that I can soothe the
cramps at your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, but I worry that you will
be infected by infantile
autism. Because of that, I have to save my mouth to
tell you jokes and
stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer screen, and that is
no good for your eyes.
I have to save my eyes so that when we grow older, I
can help to clip your
nails,and help to remove those annoying white hairs.

I will hold your hand, stroll down the beach, enjoy
the sunshine and the
beautiful sand, tell you the colour of flowers which
look just like the glow
on your young face...

Thus, my dear, before I am sure that there is
someone who loves you more
than I do, I would not pick the flower, or die.. "

My tears dropped on the letter and the words
blurred. I continued to read...

"And now, dear... you have finished reading my
answer. If you are satisfied
with these answers, please open the house door, for
I am standing out here
with your favorite bread and fresh milk...

I rushed to pull open the door. His anxious face
appeared, with his hand
holding tight to the glass of milk and the piece of
bread...

Oh I am sure no one will ever love me as much, and I
have decided to leave
the flower alone...

That's life, or some say, love. When one is surrounded by love and the
excitement fade aways, and one tends to overlook the
true love that lies
between the peace and dullness.

Love appears in any form; very miniscule and even
corny form. It has never
been a model, it could be the most unglamourous,
undramatic. Flowers,
romantic moments... These are all on the surface of
the relationship.

Beneath all it, the pillar of true love stands...

Winamp playing : Matchbox twenty - unwell

Sleepy Sunday

I feel so sleepy today, no idea why.. so tired that i can hardly open my eyes. But when i lay down on my bed i cant sleep..argh! so here i'm blogging. I'm on leave today! i hardly exercise this weekend! so gonna go play squash with John later!

Oh American Idol last week, Ruben Studdard won! But i thought clay has a clear, soothing voice! His songs are nice , but most of my frens said he sounds like he's singing in a church or something.. well maybe! But i think clay is much better than ruben..

Been listening to "Yin Yue Ri Ji" on 933fm, it's ard 8pm on weekdays. Some of the stories are really touching, the Dj, ling zhi really did a good job in reading it, and together with the background music, it can really make you feel ... in fact few days ago i recieve and email on one of the stories which was quite touching, maybe i'll post it tomorrow or something.. :)

Went to KFC with Jeremy yesterday! I hardly visit fast food restuarants but it was total crowded in town yesterday that i've no choice. We went to the Taka outlet! The counter crews were slow, very slow! and the queue was long, and waiting to eat something i didn't really want to was killing me! But jeremy was the opp of me! He's like the chicken king of kfc! It's like a daily or weekly meal to him! The thought of it turns me off! While queuing we were talking about the advert of the KFC "buddy meal" and we decide to order our food by immitating it, the very last two pple in the ad! So when it was our turn, we said " one buddy meal! "at the same time, and the person was like, one or two? .....

Squash!! Where's my racket?? damn it!

Winamp playing : Cake - Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps

Something short

I'm planning for my camp now, and i've got the t-shirts ready.
My friends was asking me to go for the OGL camp or meeting for the new batch of freshies. kinda lazy to go.. it's never interesting anyway.. if you consider having orientation in school..
Will be going off my camp really soon! Meanwhile i was thinking to do something to my blog. It's pretty hot and i cant take it anymore! Going to gym now!

Winamp playing : Lighthouse Family - high

Burning day

Wow man! the weather's like freaking hot!!!! arghhh! Just came back from swimming training! skin's like burning now.. Trying to get my fingers fast on the keyboard, i need to finish typing my report in half an hour's time then i've to go for a meeting!

Had a great weekend! On saturday, went meet my cousins, went marina for steamboat.. meet frens for pool at night and supper at newton. Then went to Ronald's house to stay over and then the next morning went for tennis, then go meet up with another group of frens at holland v - brego.. yumm! The cafe and sandwich bar! :) Oh man! The moment i saw samantha i was like oh strawberry head! hahah.. her hair is like pInk? oh yea she just came back from states for hols. Basically everyone came with a small surprise..:D was really funn and oh i'm getting ready for the camp! :D

Got to go finish up my last bit of report. Facing so many problems now.. arghh...

Winamp playing : Coldplay - The scientist

Reflection

Few more hours to go before my paper! kinda drained out already, and i'm neither physically, mentally, emotionally ready for the paper. Yes, been revising and so on, but i guess that doesnt help much. I've been so tired recently, running errands for my dad, which adds to my busy schedule and yup the sleepless nights? I'm just getting used to it.

Everyone around me are facing some problems somehow, emotionally. I dunno, i might just be influence by it or perhaps it just happens to me. Usually in my darkest hours, i have the habit of thinking about things.Maybe that's why i'm more to keeping things to myself, at least most of the time. I realise it's not easy finding someone whom you can pour out to, not because you cant trust the person or anything like that, it's just because everyone is occupied with their stuffs, who will wanna give a damn to your problems? Afterall, most of the time they won't be able to solve your problem. But i think listening is more important than just talking. Due to my work schedules, i seldom find the time to actually meet up with my friends and so on. In fact, recently i just receive a call from a fren of mine, pretty close. She called, told me that i've kinda neglected my friends and so on, which i also agree. I've not been able to meet up my friends, besides those from work, project..etc. Everyday, i just have to reject different people etc, feel kinda bad, but what choice do i have? There's like things that we can't always keep the same like before, that's what i told her. Everyone is living their lifes differently, we've our own things to work for. Nevertheless i still miss the much more relaxed time with my friends, who won't? when things were just fun, laughter and more .. everything gonna change isnt it? well, i guess now i just need to do more socialising... and i really want to.

Later in the afternoon would be all for my cousins, probably at night might meet up with some friends, i guess i need a break. Not from work, but something else too...
Alright, need to go off to meet my dad to pass him stuffs. Happy weekends everyone!

Winamp playing : Travis - Flower in the window

Counting down

3 more days to end of exams! can't wait cos i'm really drain out...actually i guess it's because i can't wait to resume my trainings especially when competition draws closer. And due to the exams, haven't been exercising that much and that's really bad. I've like an adventure camp coming, cycling camp, wat else? like me see.. class outing, not sure when it is, gonna be meeting my cousins on Saturday. It's like a every 6 mths or so gathering, that will be like about 20 of us or more if you would to include the younger ones as well. I haven't thought of where to go, my cousins suggested a buffet so we can eat and talk at the same time.. and actually my uncle was planning to book a hotel for us to stay over the weekends, but that was postponed till the holidays. Most of them are still schooling and one still having exams and so on..
But anyway, the hotel's are busy coming up with promotion plans and offers to attract locals, and i heard it's really cheap and that fullerton hotel is having a great discount for its rooms, and some hotels are like having 100 bucks/per night, provided with breakfast and so on..

I dunno, but staying in Singapore for a holiday, and to spend that amount to live in a hotel is kinda a no no for me.. Perhaps for families with kids, i'm sure the kids would love it. This holiday i might need to travel abit to KL or further to Australia. Oh ya talking about Australia, the tix there is really cheap, ard 300+? I guess i'll be getting a free ticket if i will to go there. It's an invitation from my friends there, but hmm probably end of the year or something, this term break is too short to squeeze everything!

I'm at my cousin's place now. Gonna head down to work later, yapp gotta study for my paperS tomorrow..

Winamp playing : Bon Jovi - All about loving you