Be thankful

Was listening to the radio earlier on, some of the listeners called in and voice their views over the "fight-and-grab-for-vegetables". Looks like things are getting more complicated and so on, first we have the war, then the Sars, the economy downturn, and now what? Vegetables war? well so many unhappy things have happened huh.. Anyway a listener emailed to perfect 10 and she mailed some quite interesting and inspiring stuffs, which i want to share with whoever reads this.. let's see, based on my memory... here it goes..

I'm thankful for the messy room, dirty floor and windows, because this shows that i've a house to live in,
I'm thankful for the nights when my husband is snoring, because this shows that he's by my side,
I'm thankful for the amount of taxes i have to pay, because this shows that i've a job,
i'm thankful for the tight-fitting clothes that i have, because this shows that i've enough food to eat,
i'm thankful for the noise i hear on jive drive, because this shows that i've the power of hearing.

There's still a few more, i cant really remember... but it just makes me think that sometimes the bad things that fall upon us is not always as bad afterall...

Winamp playing : Vertical Horizon - best i ever had

Somebody

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who'll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I'll get away with it

Sounds so much like a beautiful dream.. the song is simply soothing...
By the way, a number of pple had asked me to upload my pic on my site.. perhaps when i've got back all my pictures into this computer and when i'm more free..:p

A song is not just a song

Winamp playing : Depeche mode - Somebody

Good Friday ?

Running at mac ritchie at 6am+

Made pasta for lunch with my cousins

Finished reading my book

Went tuition in afternoon

Work in the late afternoon

Feeling much better compared to the last few days, was having a rather bad headache and i really feel like burying my head somewhere.. haha.. anyway I don't have to work this weekend! I'm so happpppppy!!! :D Tomorrow i'm going to do research with Daven at Orchard Lib, still remember the very last time we went there, we both got a crush on this girl. Actually we seen her for a few times, he cheekily went up to her and utter some what i call "rubbish-lame" conversation. After which we learned that her name is Liting. Being the rather hmm shy one, it's just so not me to do that. But sometimes i just hoped i can do away with that. Maybe it's just the past experience that i had... anyway a crush is always a crush..

Tuition today :
me : so how is it back to school now?
boy : not good lah, the teachers are talking about sars everyday..alot of things cancelled, school seem so meaningless now
boy : everyday before class, everyone must wash hands in the toilet.. and instead of washing hands, i feel like i just taken a bath out of the toilet
everyone is splashing waters at each other... school is TOTAL SIANESS..
me : hmm so you must be rather free now isn't it? so means more homework huh? haa
boy : *gives me that pitiful look * play bball with me lehhh
boy : my parents don't allow me go out with my friends, maybe with you cannn... plss
me : we talk about that later, finished up your work first lah..
[10 minutes later, his mum walked in with some snacks and drinks ]
boy : Mumm... can go down play bball with teacher? (pulling me close to him)
me : *thinking in my heart* teacher? i really dislike being called a teacher, sound so old* i just grin at the mother
Mum : you better finished up your first and revising for your tests first.. grins at me
boy : no problem! *giving me the "you-ve-got-no-choice" look..
boy : i really cant understand what the broom stick is teaching in school! what "-" what "+" = "-"...
me : broom stick? that's how mean of you.. hah
boy : really... she's got patricia mok look alike body! wait a min, i mean the one in the comedy night when she was hunching and acting as one of the workers in tour
agency..
me : hahah i seriously have no idea about it... ok now.. let's start lesson proper..

So in the end , i ended up playing bball for an hour +. Luckily i wasn't late for work, actually he's quite short but rather adorable hah.. but his sister is like quite fierce and cries when she's frustrated. In fact last week, while working on a maths problem, the sister got so frustrated and cried. I was simply loss for words...my god, i was thinking! damn it..hhah wat should i do now.. i gave her a tissue, that was like a very very very WRONG MOVE.. she pushed my hand away very hard and shouted the F word, walked out the room, went into her room and slammed the door. Can you imagine how shocked i was? The mum talked to me, she said i've to be extra patient with her? I'm already am, and i don't see what's more i can do.. It's really difficult to teach if she's not responding throughout the whole lesson, i've tried using different methods, from telling a story to playing games, etc.. luckily today's one was ok, she managed to complete everything without a tear.. *lucky me*

My parents, uncle and aunties will be coming back tomorrow morning. My cousins will all be going home tomorrow except for one. Cos her parents isn't coming back yet and her house under renovation. She's like 4 years old only, no need to wake up so early for school...good for me.. Exams, deadlines, assignments are just words bubbling up in my mind. Everyone's like telling me "wow you damn free loh still can go for lunch with your frens, dont need to do ur lab huh" whatever i do , there's always someone who will keep reminding me about my unfinished-piling high up like some tower-like pyramid thing.. It's not as though i'm that free just because i'm having lunch? Everyday is always a long day for me, i leave home at 7 the lastest come home at around 11+ or even later. I'll turn in like 4am or sometimes even not, depends if i've finished my work, etc.. I feel so much so like a crazy workaholic with no life sometimes, but its something that i've to do. Sometimes when i feel so stress up, and people around me just aint understanding enough, sometimes they think so much about themselves that they don't even give a damn about you. But whatever it is, i've always chose to keep my feelings to myself than to make things worse.

Gonna give mel a call.. hope she's free..just miss talking to her... been so long since i saw or chatted with her

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away

Winamp playing : Nora Jones - Don't know why

One ring to a start of a good week

I was home the whole day yesterday, too tired to go out and i pretty much like the feeling of lying on my bed, reading my books, playing my guitar and cooking for my cousins. Was playing neopets with my cousins..some of the games are really nice! You get to invest your points on stocks, set up a shop etc.. something interesting.. :)
I got this lord of the rings ring from Jeanette yesterday. yeah i'm one of big fans of lord of the rings.. i've the posters, the cards, the calendars, the bookmarks..:D was quite surprise when she gave it to me, cos actually she pop by my house to get some books from me and she said she got it some time back but wasn't free to pass it to me. i was like.. omg! isnt that lord of the rings? haha...

During the evening, i went to feed my fishes, water my plants. I've not been feeding them instead leaving the job to the maid that is temporary around now. I was thinking to go get more fishes, it seems that the fishes are really lonely swimming there..hah.. i need some more to spice up their lifes! hahaa.. Went on to watch the NKF show, make two calls and the short clip on the patients really touched my hearts. The part when Sharon Au actually went into a small, old air condition and jack neo lying on the glass and so on, really make me feel ouch.. of cos not forgetting those who sang their hearts out... The total number of calls really stunned me, as i remembered this is the only year that it really reach that much in just one event. I'll be looking forward to the local stars performing their stunts and so on... all they way!!~~

Next week's my common test week again and this week i'll probably be preparing for it as well as my second presentation for my communication project too. That means i've to meet up with my team mate. I'm feel quite a distant still with her, because she's too quiet? hmm.. and i, myself is already one quiet one.. so most of the time we just lapse into silence when we meet. Thus, we now communicate more through the net... perhaps things will get better this time round? Oh i was in the train on friday, when i saw the girl with her friends. Yah.. i still dunno her name. but anyway both of us were travelling from yck to city hall, we did chat up a little though i feel quite uneasy with her friends looking at me from head to toe. Somehow i feel like an alien or some weirdos.. maybe in a way, because i was carrying alot of things that day, i've a big sling bag for my training stuffs, a big bag that i carry on my shoulder that contains my tennis rackets, and my guitar. I was wearing a white shirt with my cream colour berms and yahh i was wearing my shades. I guess all add up to looking really weird.. haha...well the train was pretty fast so i wasn't having a hard time out there...

One Ring to Rule Them All.
One Ring to Find Them,
One Ring to Bring Them All
And in the Darkness Bind Them!

mine's the silver version of this...:D

Winamp playing : Ronan keating - when you say nothing at all

Heart for thoughts

Been really busy this week, so didn't have much time to blog. I had one of my communication presentation yesterday, it's not a school thing. Something outside that i am involved in. Glad it's over now, seriously i'm quite happy with my performance yesterday.. hah..:D Next week, will be a more relaxed week. It's gonna be school reopen already huh? My parents should be coming home next weekend or something, means my cousins would be going back home too...:( Read on articles about Singaporean's attitude towards the nurses and so on, felt really disgusted and disgraced at the same time. They are the people who risk their lifes to save others, and yet being discriminated by the society? We are not white collar workers who can standby to save lifes, but the minimum we can do is to give their moral support, encouragement. Like what timothy said, grab an appreciation card from all MRT station today and send to TTSH via post to thank the medical staff. I've a few here with me.. :D Also i've recieved a couple of sms that goes like, "I've sars because i'm suave, attractive...blahh.." can't really remember. But i really hope pple take this seriously instead of joking about it.

Yesterday, i went for my swimming training. Something i've been looking forward to since the SARs outbreak..hah.. It was quite tiring though, Jimmy bought his digital camera. We actually took alot of pics in the water. It suddenly reminds me of my diving days. Back then we did take pictures of the marine life, it's so amazing underwater... i just miss the fishes! After that we went to holland village for a drink, saw my ex-school mates! And i heard one of our friends joined the star search and he got in to the so called selection or something like that... i saw an advertisement of it just now but its like i seen those girls who all on tvs are like not outstanding enough to be qualified for a celebrity.

Anyway today, will be the first half of the NKF show, i picture this gonna be a real big event as it had moved on to it's 10th year. Every year i would make a call at least, to give my support, this time round is no exception. pls donate.. When people usually thinks that the actors and actress are risking their lifes, but i thought if they do not do stunts and so on, it wouldn't show that much of them trying to help with the fund-raising. It will be so boring if the actors just sings and dance.. isnt it?

It's been raining this couple of days huh? where's the sunn????

Winamp playing : Dakota Moon - A promise i make

No more lectures

My school has officially suspended all lectures and all lectures will be conducted during tutorials. I think i like that.. that would means earlier dismissal. I'm currently now working on my speech project. Will be kinda busy this week to blog.

My second tuition lesson will start tomorrow.. anyway the first one was still not bad..hah.. i guessed i didn't failed. well, i'm teaching one in primary 6 and one in sec1. Hence, i think the syllabus is about the same.. I'm teaching maths and science for both. The mom requested me to help the elder one in literature.. hmm.. i think i need to do some proper lesson plan and what to cover by every lesson.

Well i went wakeboarding on Sunday! wow! was really funnnnn!!!!!! I went kallang. My friend lend me one of his wakeboards and it was the short and wide one? It was quite a hazzard to equipped yourself with the bindings, the fins.. The setup was pretty fast. He thought me the basics all over again.. but i got it rather fast. ( heh.. the 2nd time now) Like every other surf sports, or even skating, you got names for stuns..The first stun i learn i guess is the simple one , is called "surfing the wake". It's quite tedious in the beginning because when you change direction you've got to so called "break" in other words is your heels must go down into the water. Well my board did slip a couple of times. I tried two other stuns which is surface 360 and powerslide. All this was like a piece of cake to my fren, and well till now i cant master powerslide. I gave up. haha... but i'll try again next time. I thought it was damn cool ! To me is about how you control your board, balancing and how much weight you put on your toes. This will determine huge spray of water... arghh right now i feel like doing it again! :D

oh shit... i'm running late... schoool here i come...!!!!!!

Winamp playing : Dan Hill - Sometimes when we touch

First tuition lesson

I'm going for my first tuition lesson soon. Quite nervous..haha.. I never had tuition before, though i did accompany my friend once to tuition. Hence, i don't quite know how is like in someone's house giving tuition... i think i better get going first. I need some time to look for the place..:D Anyway, i just surf for some books, and for those Nicholas Sparks fan, here is his new book! nice cover! Actually almost all his book covers are really nice... will blog when i'm back [/edit-15.18]

Looking forward to the weekends

Presentation went well today, just that my group was kinda of a little disadvantage cos we are the last group and there weren't much time left. Everyone was a little impatient, and my tutor was indirectly rushing us, making it more tense for my team mates. But i guess we did our best, i think that's enough for now.. so glad! Projects are a bye bye now.. Now i've to concentrate on my outside projects that i'm working on. Tomorrow i'll have to attend a speech seminar which will last for around 3 hours or so. After which i'll be going for my swimming meeting, i guess they will resume training soon. It's not known that SARs can be spread through water, and who will be in the right mind to swim when they are sick? Goood! i miss training..

Last night, i was forced to sleep earlier because one of my cousins got a nightmare so he wants me to accompany him to sleep. He's so troublesome! I've to wear pyjamas, sleep within not more than half an arm's length away from him...blahh.. haha in order just to make him sleep, i've to spend time finding pyjamas...like if i've any.. haha..but i found one fortunately. don't think anyone wears pyjamas to sleep now, at least for the guys? so i slept, woke up 2 hours later after he's sound asleep, changed back do my drawing...make breakfast...and went to school for my presentation.

I was reading the newspaper today, i heard about the preparations for the National Day Parade 03. Saw this girl with the design for this year NDP's logo. I thought it was quite nice..I wouldn't say it's like extremely nice though, cos i thought it's quite simple? maybe simple is not the word to describe..but i can't think of the word now... Any comments on it?

Heard that primary schools, secondary .. are extending the closure of schools? Looks like i've the company of the kids for another period of time, in fact i hadn't heard anything from my uncles nor aunties at all.. It's good anyway, makes the house more lively! I'm going wakeboarding this Sunday!! I'm so so so SO looking forward to it! I wanted to join the BigWalk this year..but i really want to win the digital camera! no..no.. that's not the reason why i wanna participate.Everyone is so afraid of SARs, i'm still looking for pple to go ... :(

Heard the Oliver at esplanade is good.. Henry was telling me that his $76 was worth it. The cast was very good.. the little boy and lady was damn cute! He has good vocals..etc..:D Of cos not refering to the complains he made about the esplanade theatres. When everything seems so majestic on the outside, he was damn irritated when people needed to move from their seats. It's like when one person needs to move, everyone in the row gotta stand up to make space for the person to walk through. Perhaps they should do something about it huh.. in fact this isn't the first time i heard about such complains.. so for those of you who are heading down for some musicals, plays..concerts.. something to know..

btw though i'm not a great fan of Leslie cheung, his death was the most shocking April's fool joke.. I love his song "Zhui" ( the cantonese version). hmm.. saddening..

hah.. i'm gonna play neopets with my cousins now.. :D *don't remind me of my drawings*

The head has not heard, until the heart has listened

Winamp playing : CareBears - i care for you [lols..]

Presentation

I just came back from work not long ago. I'm going to school in an hour time, gonna reach school slightly earlier. I'm having one of my presentations today, so have to make sure that everything works well before it even started. I usually would prefer presentations over tutorials, though some of my classmates are quite tensed about it. But today, i think i'm a little tired, so probably after this i'll take a short rest. I haven't decided on which shirt to wear, which tie to match. hmm...i just ran through the slides, briefly have an idea of what to say. Come to think about it, i think i've wasted my 3 days time designing my own template. It's still not what i really want..

Today i got no work in the evening, i promised to bring my cousins out to the supermarket to allow them to choose what food they want for dinner and i'll cook! Been sometime since i cook actually, everyday i'll be working outside so most of the time i'll just have to get a quick bite outside. I think that's pretty unhealthy and i guess kids should eat healthy 3 course meal..haha.. I'm quite looking forward to this late afternoon. It's sometimes so fun to be with kids, they never make you feel lousy or upset over things. They are so naive, innocent, whatever is spinning around them is either happiness or the other. The good thing is that they won't dwell on it, they can easily move on. Just when i thought having 6 kids at my house is a " i-can't-really-handle" kinda thing, i'm now wishing for a dozen! haha.. well i think i can open a childcare centre soon.. hoho!

Alright, i think i better get change, style up abit, and off to school! Hope my presentation will go smoothly... :D

The soul's escaping, through this hole that it's gaping
This world is mine for the taking!!!

Winamp playing : Eminen - Lose yourself [/edit]